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Hey havent been bloggin about a certain topic for a v. long time.. since i blog that i no longer liked him anymore.. anyway last yr tis day.. sumting happened.. haha not sumting significant okie.. but something happened that made me liked him even more.. haha shall not further elaborate here.. but sumhow this day made me like him even more.. it is been one yr.. alot of tings had changed.. suddenly it just occur to me how horrible it is... as in only within a yr.. but alot of tingy can change... time is horrible.. in fact a lot of things can change in a day too.. like a married couple can be a divorced couple in a day.. You can be happy today and sad the other day.. the person next to you can be alive and kicking today and die tomorrow.. erm okie.. i am not being sad or opmistic.. but then this is just some of my tinking.. i haf realise tis long ago.. and i know that i should cherish everything around me because in a flash of time everything will be gone.. you haf to haf the courage to do tings.. but i dun haf that kind of courage.. luckily i dun haf that kind of courage.. otherwise i would have confessed to him long ago and be made the butt of the joke.. or mayb tings will turned out differently.. i dunno.. haha sometime how nice it would be if you haf a object that can tell you what will happen if you do this and what will happen if you do that??..
Okie.. i shall not deny that i am depressed today.. afterall my love was not fake.. one yr plus of liking him.. and remembering today is the day whereby i fell deeply for him.. it isnt something that will make me happy.. though i dun really like him now.. but i was hopeful in the past.. mayb you all might luff.. but i was really hopeful last yr.. till the beginning of this yr that he and i will get together.. just that i need to make the confession to him when the time is right.. but then.. now my hopes are dash.. i no longer feel that we will get together.. the fact is.. my encounter wif him is only a short one.. and at that short moment.. because i get to see him everything.. i was sure.. very sure that we will get together.. but time does not heal ppl...nor will it make him miss me even more.. it will drift us more and more apart.. when we werent even close to each other in the past.. now the distance between us are like north pole and south pole.. and we will just stay at the respective poles.. sad rite.. sometime i really wonder what if tings really turn out differently.. what if i really confessed to him and get together with him.. will i be happy??... one ting for sure.. i dun really love him anymore.. but the fact that i go around telling ppl that i will want to remain single for the rest of my life show that i have not totally let him go.. Now that is the joke.. when will i ever learn to let him go.. i guess not in this life.. Then come the part whereby i will say hopefully if there is a next time i will learn to let go of him rite.. but then one part of my heart hestitated.. it seems that, that part of my heart is not prepared to let go of him.. still habouring hopes of mittin him if there is a next life.. oh tis is so sad..
Okie here come the ending part.. wake up!!... i noe v. well that me and him are not fated.. so get on wif life.. in the meantime.. just try and learn to let go of him.. perhaps the next time when i blog about him again.. it is when i say that i haf totally learn to let go of him...
Okie.. i shall not deny that i am depressed today.. afterall my love was not fake.. one yr plus of liking him.. and remembering today is the day whereby i fell deeply for him.. it isnt something that will make me happy.. though i dun really like him now.. but i was hopeful in the past.. mayb you all might luff.. but i was really hopeful last yr.. till the beginning of this yr that he and i will get together.. just that i need to make the confession to him when the time is right.. but then.. now my hopes are dash.. i no longer feel that we will get together.. the fact is.. my encounter wif him is only a short one.. and at that short moment.. because i get to see him everything.. i was sure.. very sure that we will get together.. but time does not heal ppl...nor will it make him miss me even more.. it will drift us more and more apart.. when we werent even close to each other in the past.. now the distance between us are like north pole and south pole.. and we will just stay at the respective poles.. sad rite.. sometime i really wonder what if tings really turn out differently.. what if i really confessed to him and get together with him.. will i be happy??... one ting for sure.. i dun really love him anymore.. but the fact that i go around telling ppl that i will want to remain single for the rest of my life show that i have not totally let him go.. Now that is the joke.. when will i ever learn to let him go.. i guess not in this life.. Then come the part whereby i will say hopefully if there is a next time i will learn to let go of him rite.. but then one part of my heart hestitated.. it seems that, that part of my heart is not prepared to let go of him.. still habouring hopes of mittin him if there is a next life.. oh tis is so sad..
Okie here come the ending part.. wake up!!... i noe v. well that me and him are not fated.. so get on wif life.. in the meantime.. just try and learn to let go of him.. perhaps the next time when i blog about him again.. it is when i say that i haf totally learn to let go of him...
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