Sylvia's World...

Heard this song tis afternoon.. find that it suits the current state that i am in.. Peps out there who are tryin to matchmake me.. pls dun try to do anything funny again.. i really dun wanna feel like a lay long goods... perhaps you all are doing this outta good intention.. but i feel like that little dignity that i have work so hard to save all these years are getting destroyed by this act too.. it seems as if i am a desperado... mayb my action did say something.. but seriously i am not that desperate.. i am really alright... let's just let the song do the talking...

你问在我心中　是否还苦恼
那次受伤　否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照　我一切都好一个人　不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙　却不能为了寂寞　又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待　仔细寻找　感觉很重要
宁可空白了手　等候一次　真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上　一定会遇到对的人出现(在眼角)

那次流过的泪　让我学习到
如何祝福　如何转身　不要
在眼泪体会到　与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要　是一种对照
爱虽然很美妙　却不能为了寂寞　又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待　仔细寻找　感觉很重要
宁可空白了手　等候一次　真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上　一定会遇到对的人出现

能愿意为了一份爱　付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候　我就算已经准备好放手去爱　海阔天高

爱要耐心等待　仔细寻找　感觉很重要
宁可空白了手　等候一次　真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上　一定会遇到对的人出现

Yeah yeah i am getting heartache again... because of a dream that i had.. but then oh well yeah i feel lousy nw... and i really feel lousy.. but it is not as if i can help it... there is nthing i can do too....

I wanna change the blog skin..... rushing to change my blogskin.... yet i cant bear to give up this blog skin.. because i really like this blogskin... so why the rush to change the blogskin then?... Is it because that it signify the new beginning?... I thot i have just blogged yesteday that i wun tink about prince charming again?.. why do i caught myself thinking about him again today... to clarify that thinkin bout him doesnt mean that i miss him till i wanna die le.. but rather... the going thru happy memories type of missing him... That explain the rush to change my blog.. the original title for the blog for this skin was.. Be my butterfly... that was when i hope that he can truly be my butterfly.. then it changed and changed and changed.... till nw... no more feeling le.. but just suddenly thot of him today...oh no i am goin thru that phrase again.. the phrase whereby no sad song sound sad to me..

Well.. a little update about myself since i have not bloggin for so long... life is kinda okie.. no big waves coming to distrupt my life which is a good thing... beginning to truly settle down.. coming to acceptance with life.. and truly trying to enjoy every single moment...

Well one more mth towards CNY which means that celebration!... well.. nt really celebration.. but then it is the time of the year where you have every single rite to dress nicely... hehehe... and less than two wk before my bday.. hitting 22 is a big phrase for me.. at least when i am 21 you can still consider me a teenager because 21 mah... 22 means that i am no longer young le... haiz... but then i have decided that i will accept aging gracefully and hopefully i will aged gracefully too.... My resolution for 2007 before my bday:

1) To slim down for another 15kg
2) To gain control of my life and not screw up again
3) Be way way way nicer to LFL and try to communicate more with LKK
4) Be nicer to grandma and wai gong.. (not that i am not nice to them.. but i will make a extra effort to be nice to them)
5) No more thinking about prince charming (when ya strong and working hard to build a better life.. who cares about prince charming?)
6) Keep my room!!!!
7) Study harder
8) Learn self defence art...

Well that is all i can tink about for the moment of time.....
But yeah.. i truly hope that life will take a better turn and keep on getting a better turn as each yr advance on.... (=

Well.. recently me and my sis invented a word..
Bimbo = beautiful woman without brains
BUT.. what if the person is not beautiful, not brainy and the only thing about her is that she is ultra skinny?..
We call her bonebo.. we cannot call her bimbo because that does nt do justification to bimbos because they are beautiful, but bonebo is diff that means that she is ugly and she is brainless...

Why am i so nasty today.. you may ask... that is because there is this particular bonebo in my life that is really pushing me to the verge that i wanna slap her.... It is just that too much.. i mean it is her behavior that is making me intolerable.. i have blogged once about her in this blog too.. about how too much she is how self centred she is and how selfish she is... i just forgot to add in about how wayang she is as well.. i seriously cannot stand her at all man.. she is stupid to the power of infinity... Argh~
And the best part is that she throw herself at all man that crosses her path so long as she is single.. doesnt matter who you are so long as you are willing to take her she is willing to be with you... I have finally figured out why she can always get hitched with a guy easily while i cant.. that is nt because she is way prettier or anything.. it is just because she is easy goin and i am not...

Recently.. if you have been following my blog, you will notice that i had just quarralled with my parents on seperate occasions... on christmas with my mum and new year eve with my dad...
Haiz... the quarral with my mum is over.. it is the quarral with my dad that is still goin on.. you see my dad is a retiree.. and my mum well being my mum will always quarral with him for idling at home... drinking with his friends.. and he should do all the housework... and yesterday i quarralled with him because i also find his drinking too much.. i noe that he is not totally drunk.. but i chose to said that to him at the point of time because he was saying tat for that few more years.. it doesnt matter.. the fact is that it does matter to us... I am the closest to my parents.. and though i really hate the way they do things sometime.. losing either of them will drive me to the end of world and stay there.. and losing both of them will make me lost all my sanity....
Why cant he see that everytime my mum flare up we are the POW.. and we have always form a liases with each others.. yet yesterday was the few rare time whereby i side my mum and quarralled with him because i reall dun wan him to drink so much???....

And nw he said that he want to go out to work again.. as a cleaner.. to clean bowls and cups in hawker centre... my heart broke... why does he has to do this??... i dunno.. i am feeling so miserable nw... i am really so upset.. and i really dunno from which point am i goin to take on this problem and resolve it....