Sylvia's World...

Well.. just received a call frm my sis... she had quarralled with her husband er.. sorry correction her mother in law...

Apparently, my sis's husband had scolded her (my sis's mother in law) and complain that he has no money to spend.. and yet my sister is still asking for money... FYI.... their family operate a furniture shop... and owns two car.. whom that bloody bastard is paying for.... additionally.. he also hired a bunch of useless fools in his shops... They wine and dine in restraunt while my sis eat porriage at home... and he only give my sis a pathetic monthly household income of $1000+ per mth to pay for electricity bills, maintenance fee, the kid's expenses, the school fee and the food. And he told his mother that if he gave her a detail breakdown of how he spend his money per mth, she will cry.. ya cry because she finally realise that his son is spending so much money on things that are not needed, that he spend so much month per mth, and nt because of the amt that he has to save per mth and spend wisely because he has no money... Bloodly hell... he has nothing when he mit my sister only one bloody mercz that only he being the frog in the well thot is a big deal... My sister slog her guts out together with him and nw that their business are good.. they are living like kings and queens while my sister and her two kids live in povety...

As if it is nt enuff.. they never cherish my sister, while the bloody bitch mother in law treated the other two daughter in law like queen, my sister is like a slave!... That whole family (excluding my sis and her two kids as well as the other two daughter in law) should be damn to hell.. and live there forever...

Argh!!... Fucker i dun believe that there is no way that we couldnt get back at him.. but of course i need to set my sister firmly on the ground and start her life all over again... she has to take care of the two kid for sure...

As for that bloodly bastard.. dying is a good way for him... i curse that he has to suffer all the emotional torment that he himself caused to so many people.... He will hug his mama and burn in hell together.. BASTARD....

Life... has two side... it just depend on how you wanna view it.. in the positive way.. or in the negative way.. i just found out that one of my friend is married.. or rather ROM.. his wife... is 21 yrs old.. same age as me... and i am still dangling here... nowhere ard... i remember telling BT once before izzit that my life has to be like so... i mean.. ppl has a bf.. they has a backend job... they dun have to get scolded by cust.. it seems like they are so loved... then.. me??... i get all the shit from life.. i am still single... and i have to work in CS.. whereby i risk getting scolded every single day... and as if it is nt enuff.. i have friends who are seems like foe rather than friend... it is really quite sad... then BT reminded me this.. you noe.. ppl may have all the above mentioned.. but because you dun have.. so you are able to view ur family's love for you clearer and cherish them even more...

Somewhere.. somehow.. i would need to find a balance in all this thing.. ppl always tell me.. yi ding hui you de... it is just that ur prince charming have nt appear... well... after 21 yrs of not having been in a relationship... i give up... i give up all hope... the guys i mit in my life??... feel nthing for me... so i give up all hope.. completely all hopes ever...

But i will always remember what BT told me... it is because of all this shit in life that make me sees the love my family member have for me in a clearer way and appreciate them...

Hmm havent been blogging for a while.. so decide to post something here.. updates.. i slim down again!!... yeah!!... erm... i have calm down alot.. and well the heart pain had subsided alot alot.. i no longer feel that painful le... but then i guess i am nt ready to take away the healing in process title.... this is the last remaining bit of feeling that i still hold on to.. the last remaining feeling that link me to him.... until i have totally forgot bout him.. when which ever person mention his name.. it wun bring any special feeling to my heart.. then i can declare that i had truly forgotten bout him and i can move on with my life leaving my love for him truly sealed.. Something happened last few days that makes me decide that i am numb... but dun wish to elaborate too much.... i just wish to keep all feeling and encounter with him inside my heart... i am afraid that if i share with too many ppl.. the feeling might get diluted.. and then the last remaing few bits of feeling will also be gone...

Anyway enuff about the above mention... some other updates.. next wk i am goin for a chalet!... really looking forward to it.. it is sorta truly a chalet held by the five cousins in the circle of trust without all the aunties.. ya the aunties are goin on the first day and i am goin on the second day.. so overall i wun really bump into them.. hahaha.... i wanna enjoy myself and play... muaha.. i noe that today's topic doesnt have much depth.. but then i guess this is the aftermath of my fairy tale like crush.. when the huge amt of feeling leave your heart.. it is just leave a big big empty space there with nothing but emptiness and numbness....

Hmm refer above.. that is the topic of the day.... recently a distant to the power of infinity cousin made a remark that is so stupid.. we wonder how he got his degree frm a ESTABLISHED SINGAPORE UNIVERSITY..... Anyway.. was not able to get his full name so consider himself lucky.... we noe his name is something yan.. and ppl call him Ah Yan (prounced as the first sound in hanyu pin ying).....

His auntie.. which so happened to be my mum's cousin.. got cancer... SO being the smart alec that he is.. he went to search the internet and found out that cancer is inheritary (OMG somebody kill me.. i really dun wish to be in anyway blood related to him... a simple info like this he need to go to internet to search?... Is he dumb or what?).... so he state that.. the reason why this cousin auntie of ours got cancer is because my Ah Ma (maternal side) got cancer!... Lets get the family tree correct before we continue... my Ah Gong (maternal side) and the father of this cousin auntie are siblings.. they are BLOOD RELATED... but my Ah Ma is somebody who my Ah Gong got married to.. in another word... they are only related by MARRIAGE.. nt BLOOD....

And this Ah Yan without figuring out anything.. went ahead to make the remark of the year... which of course causes alot of outcry and blood boil from my cousins, my siblings and me... You noe.. a person is dead... you should at least give them some respect.. somemore is a elder... what the f**k is he tryin to do when he point the finger at my late Ah Ma??.. There is no due respect paid to the dead... nt to mention to the elders as well as to US... because he insulted our heritage roots... Pls... if you cannot afford to do too much tinking.. then dun do the tinking.. nobody said that uni student need to make smart comment or even any comments at all.... so if there is anything that you are nt sure of.. pls ck.. do research before sayin the statement.. and we are not sure should we luff at ur low mentality or should we be angry that you insulted our roots...

I noe that we cannot do anything to him... so we decide to blog it down... at here.... at Tze and at LKK and LFL blog... Since he lurve to search the internet.. we will give him a little something to read about.. of course this time the topic is him and nt my Ah Ma...

FYI Ah Yan if ya reading... you are spared because of due respect given to your grandparents... because ur late Ah Gong is nice and your Ah Ma is nice too... so we decide that it is not worth it to upset the elderly for ur puny life... See we are gentlemanly enough to pay our respect to our elder even though our blood are boiling COZ YOU INSULTED OUR ROOTS... so pls.. if you cannot pay due respect... just stupid up... if you are nt able to shut up.. pls refer the forumla provided in LKK and LFL blog which teaches you how to shut up.....

Lastly.... here is the insult of the year.. 'You are even more stupid than Ah Yan'
*Sinister Laughter*

P.S. nw you noe.. 'hell halt no fury for women whom grandparents are insulted' ... pls also do us a favor as well.. in case that you are really reading this blog Ah Yan >>> pls inform whoever relatives who want to insult us in the future to tink twice before action... coz we are no longer the previous generation who are as soft as cotton wool and will only cry when bullied... definately we will strike back.. and make sure that the person gets it twice as hard.. COZ WE ARE NOT STUPID..... YOU DUMBASS....

Hmm this is a nice song... http://youtube.com/watch?v=S8yYT8dkfVM
it is a light hearted song which is v. sweet... but the strange thing is... i am crying while listening to this song.... my heart is just so painful...

But.. nevertheless..is a nice song.. go ahead and listen to it...

As the title read.. i am in the processing of healing... mending back my broken heart piece of piece.. so far as it seems... it is quite difficult to mend the pieces back together... it just refuse to stick back together... and is quite painful...

i really dont know why can the pain be so intense.. for somebody who i am nt really very close to....

I spend two yr getting outta this crying nonsense.. nw i am back in it again... crying as and when i hear a sad song.... and the heart is constantly in pain.. but i am able to describle the feeling exactly.. it is heart broken... that is the term... my heart is broken... and i really dont know what to do to stick it back...