Sylvia's World...

Well.. blogged something.. saved as draft.. i wanted to display that.. just that i need to do some editing to that entry.. but i found that there is nothing that i can take away.. coz every single sentence is really from the bottom of my heart...

The feeling nw is lonely... very lonely and it is a deafening lonely.. like i told beeting.. it is like.. you are playing with a grp of friends in a play ground.. then one by one.. they leave you for other places.. and you are the only one left there.. yet you cant join them.. it is that type of feeling..

I tink i reflect what Bai He said in The Rose.. I am just a ugly duckling who had accidentally stumbled into the swam's herd..

I guess the duckling can only stay on earth while she sees all her fellow companionship flies away.. i am not sayin this with a hint of jealousy.. not even a single hint.. just my part of sadness noeing how much less companionship i am goin to get in the future...

Let me side track a bit first... I am listening to Super Woman from Cao Ge nw.. erm.. haha the thot just side track to whose super woman do i belong to.. but then.. mayb i am my own super woman.. and my own only.. sad~ ... but mayb it is better this way...

Anyway get back to today's topic.. my dad was discussing with me about alighting and boarding bus prob when we were on our way back home from dinner.. He was telling me that the other time when he and my mum was boarding a bus.. they were first in the q.. and behind them were a bunch of students who were seated.. when the bus was here.. immediately all the students started rushing forwarded and my mum managed to get thru, but my dad was 6th to 7th in the q.. until he voiced out to respect elderly then those students let him get thru the bus.. this is soo funny.. i mean i am not saying this because this happened to my dad.. i will voice out the same for any elderly that was being treated this way.. let us recap.. why does ppl have to rush up a bus.. there are only two reason... first because it is rush hr and if you dun rush you will nv make it.. second you want a seat.. for those who rush up the bus for the second reason, dont you think it is shameful?.. I mean youngsters who are healthy should always give up their seats to elderly who needs them more than those youngsters do.. so why in the world is there a need to rush up the bus then?... I have seen many cases of elderly in the MRT standing.. really old ppl.. and those youngsters, will just cuddle with their other half and pretend nt to see... some will indulge in their music as if they are deaf or the others will chose to sleep.. all in all they will all pretend nt to see anything.. and i felt very surprise by this.. i mean why dun they feel every a bit of feeling towards this grp of elderly ppl who needs seats more than they do.. nt because they are plain lazy, but it is very dangerous for elderly ppl to fall down and they are not as agile as youngsters so standing firm in a MRT might be a difficult task for them.. yet this youngster just refused to see them and pretend that nothing had happened.. What are this ppl doin??.. I really dont understand.. and sometime i really feel v. angry toward this ppl who refused to give up their seats..seriously i dun understand.... what are young ppl nowadays thinking??.. Are their health really that bad that they will injured themselves by giving up their seats to elderly ppl?...

Well.. you noe the feelin when you desperately wants something and couldnt get it, then when you doesnt want that thing anymore, you keep on getting it?.. That is the feeling that i am having nw.. you noe in the past when i was in secondary school.. i always hope tat i could get a fever and hope and hope and hope.. and seriously.. for the four yrs that i was in sec school.. i was only seriously really sick for one time!!!..... Then nw that i have started workin.. i desperately hope that i wun get sick.. and guess what.. within 3 mth of my work... i was sick for four time!... and everytime is high fever de lor...

I really dunno what is wrong with my body nwadays man... the fever just come and go like nobody's business.. completely no way to trackle now the fever comes by... i used to be so healthy that i can just eat anything i want.. go under the rain and sun also no prob.. nw my body really very bad lor..!!!.... I cant let this goes on.. I tink i muz live healthily nw... more fruits.. no more chocolate.. and more exercise.. and no more late nights....
sigh~

Wo zhi dao shang xin bu neng gai bian she mer
Na mer, rang wo cheng shi yi dian
Cheng shi na mian you bu neng kong zhi de xian xian
Zhi yao kuan sheng le men, bu bi li shui

Yi ge ren zuo zai kong dang bao xiang li mian
Shou ji rang da xiu xi yi ye
Nan xiang qie ge qie tiao hui yi de hui mian
Yan lei bu neng liu guo shi er dian

Sheng ri kuai le,
Wo duai zi ji shou
La zu dian le
Ji mo liang le
Sheng ri kuai le
Lei ye rong le
Wo yao xie xie ni gai de, ni nan zou de yi qie

Hai ai ni,
Dai yi dian heng,
Hai yao shi jian
Cai neng ping heng
Re lian sheng heng
Huan mia zhong sheng
Zu wo sheng ri kuai le...

A sudden surge of sadness just engulf me while i was listening to this song... i am speechless... i miss him... very badly...