Sylvia's World...

My life is span in a web of lies, acting, some bitches here and there... force dieting.. dreaming of slimming down one day... very very hot days.. assholes here and there.. no future.. black eye rings...

BUT....

on top of that... my life also consist of.. loving family.. loving boyfriend.. loving kids.. loving soft toys.. rainy days... the super duper strong will power to get my life to work out the way i want to... cutie nephews (bleah).. timid buddy to let me bully.. q= nice people that i bump into in life who are constantly giving me good life advice FOC for me to lead my life correctly

So for all the negative stuff that happened in life.. there are bound to be good stuff that will happened too.. so for all these... i still feel that i lead a very blessed life... ^_^

So Sylvia... keep going on okay?.. come what may.. you have to be strong in life and not let anything get you down... NEVER!!!...

For the tenth million times that i have applied leave to keep my room to such an extent that my supervisor asked me.. "Ng Poh Yan.. you keep on applying leave.. you got enuff leave or not?.."

So yeah.. and for the 9.999999999million times that i have failed in keeping my room after taking those leave... wasted efforts.. disappointed expression on boyfriend's face when he come into the house expecting to see a clean room but saw the same things all around...

Disturbed expression on his face when he has to shift all my clothes onto the chair so that he can sleep and be worried whole night about an impending clothes avalanche...

Not enough to tell you how disturbed he is?... then this will confirm plus guarantee and chop that he is disturbed... when i told him that i took leave on thursday to clean my room... he put his hands together firmly and started praying to the laptop.. and i asked him what is he doing... and his reply is.. "I am praying to the internet to be down on thursday so that there are no distraction... best for them to do their internet maintainence on that day..." and show me this expression... =D

Smelly boyfriend... -_-

Okay okay.. i know that i have not been keeping my promise to keep my room as per promised... i have been going online to play facebook, chit chat and it always seems like there are thousand and one interesting things to do on the internet on my day to clean the room.. or i will go out and play blah blah blah blah blah... okay.. but this time.. i will keep my promise and keep the room okay...

I will wake up at 6.30am in the morning to slog my guts away for the day working hard to clean my room so that my room will be ultra clean that you need to wear sunglasses when you enter okay...

bleah!

Quite a few things happened during these period of time.. not bad stuff... some are pretty good stuff in fact.. like the $250 joke.. which turn out to be a blessing in disguise... the istana trip.. which i finally get to visit the Istana.. shake hand with the president.. and took alot of nice photographs there... or our anniversary which went pretty well despite the hot weather...

Life is... pretty on track now.. on the good track... so i truly appreciate this peacefulness and realise that.. sometime.. when you take a back step and dun think so much or dun be too calculative.. life can be pretty good.. just ignore and take whatever you have.. that way.. you will have a relatively easy going life and not get worked up over every single little thing... easier said than done.. i am still learning.. i am still learning..

There are a few things that i seriously hope to get it done and settled asap..
1) To scrub my dirty oven so that i can continue baking stuff
2) To bake a carrot cake after i am done with cleaning my dirty oven
3) Clean my room (the boyfriend's face is getting blacker and blacker everyday when he look at my room.. opps)
4) Revive the dead jewellery business that i have "con" my sis and sis-in-law to fork out money for joint collaboration..

The last thing to do.. is also a desperate option for me to lead a successful life.. I have been doing alot of thinking.. like thinking on every chance that i have about my current state of life.. i have no future at all doing what i am doing.. because.. there is just simply no future.. so i really need to break out of this and do something different so that i can get on the shore soon...

Hopefully.. the road ahead is tedious.. but i need to bear with it and move on.. no matter how hard it is.. so long as there are opportunities..

Yes.. after a internal battle with myself.. believe me.. it was a huge struggle.. between moral.. and universal sisterhood.. but finally.. moral won... so i have to say it out..

MMYY EATING CHICKEN RICE AND CUCUMBER.....

I know that she will feel betrayed if she read this.. but trust me mmyy.. i had a difficult battle with myself... but i feel that morally.. i am obligated to say it out that you EAT CHICKEN RICE WITH CUCUMBER while recovering from chicky pox...