Sylvia's World...

I dun noe when to let go....

friends... cca..... colleagues....

i never noe when to let go.. until things turned nasty then i start to feel really sad as to why is things like this now when it used to be better.. chatted with a friend recently and either he was busy.. or he cant really be bothered to chit chat with me..

We used to be good friends.. yet... nthing happened between us... we din quarral or disagree in anything.. we just drifted apart... and then.. we became just very basic friend.. instead of the very good friend that we used to be...

Why will this happen... everytime something like that happened.. i will feel very sad.. i tried my best to remain as i am.. but things changed and everything just drifted apart... must as i wanna keep the ties close... i just cant do it alone... i cherish my friendship with my friends.. but then i cant keep up the friendship by myself.. i do understand that people do have their own life to lead.. their own stuff to do.. but all i asked for is to maintain a friendship.. is that so hard?

Or mayb i am just too irritating to be true?... sigh...

Actually, it is not at one time.. but more of at one period of time.

So i have been feeling a huge surge of emotion but i dunno what type of emotion i am feeling actually. I just know that there is this huge feeling in my heart.

Found my ex-friend's blog a few days ago and read about what happened in her life during these few years.. Well, i am no longer in talking term with this friend of mine because our friendship did not exactly ended in the nicest way but i think it ended in most pro the ugliest way ever. It is amazing how you used to be the bestest friend around but can just turn into enemy overnight but that is life isnt it?

Anyway.. i have gone back to playing maplestory.. We managed to find a server that is like super sonic fast in level-ing up.. So all of us are back to playing maplestory once again..

And to end this off... I am getting fatter leh!.... I can feel it lor.. how??.. die lah die lah.. i wanna slim down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watched a documentary about Monty Roberts recently and a sentence from his synopsis remain deeply rooted in my mind.... The meaning of the sentence is that to train a horse, you often have to break the will of this strong willed animals and often, the breaking of the will is done through cruel treatment...

Why am i mentioning about this?...

I had a conversation with my parents who told me that they noticed that didi is growing very skinny recently and then they tried to track the cause of didi being so skinny recently.. then my dad commented that mayb it is a psychological effect that causes didi to stop eating so much..

Didi is a person who is really stubborn.. I remembered that when he was a few months old, my sis tried to pat him to coax him to sleep but he refuses to sleep.. I took over from her and try to pat didi and he stubbornly keep sitting up even though he is sleepy and refuses to sleep.. So didi is a very stubborn person.. could it be that.. in order to make him obey them... some people tried to use scaring methods to make him obey?..

So much so that the frequent scaring causes him to be really afraid of all the things that even his own shadow scare him?... I feel really upset if didi really went thru all these of being frighten by people until he is so dan xiao... I really hope that i can find ways to help him....

Once again....

*I love didi*