Hello...

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Hello... are you there?

It's been a long time since i updated this blog (okie minus the unpleasant entry that i wrote last week)...... and i would really like to resume blogging if possible...

After all, this is my way of reflection and for me to look back at my life so far... which has been blank here for like ten thousand years...

I would also like to find some ways to change this blog skin... yes i love the skin, yes i really really love the butterfly and if possible i would like to tattoo that butterfly... but the.. this skin has been with me since the beginning.. and it definately carries some unpleasant memories with it that i would like to forget if possible... you! (pointing to TFB) i know that you will read, but i will not tell you what are the unpleasant memories, because it is not even worth my time to mention it...

So many things has happened over the years and if you realised that there has been very little updates on this place after *cough*i *cough* got *cough* together *cough* with *cough* somebody *cough*

Some happening updates about us! I am going on part time working arrangement soon ~~ when i say part time, i meant working ONLY 11 hours per week.. so it is like working one day, then slacking for the rest of the four days.. HA! you wish. I am gonna go back to study full time as i really cannot take the pain of doing part time studies as i will never be able to finish it if i continue to do my studies in such snail pace... zzz

It is something that i really appreciate, because i have the chance to go back to being a full time student, slacking and control my own time.. =D

I feel that i am really fortunate, because when i was a student, i never knew that being student is such a fortunate thing because i am a poor student... now that i am working, i want so badly to go back to being a student as i can control my own time and be available during odd timing like afternoon... and now i could really go back to being a student, i would really use the time better to appreciate life!

It feels like, i am taking a step back, to spring myself even further in the future... (=

Of course, with studies as full time, i hope to be able to blog more, post more photographs of interesting stuff that i encounter and focus more on baking and bake super powerful and edible stuff.. hahaha...

Next! we FINALLY got a q number that is within the number of flats offered... phew!

It is not exactly a good q number because it is 177 out of 252.. but then... we cant be too picky liao right? Since we have gotten a q number? Not that i am not disgrunted, or i feel that what i got such a good deal.. but it is more of what to do.. there are thousand of people who GOT THEIR Q CANCELLED and i got one q that can chose a flat then should not make noise right, not even glad that i got a q, but shouldnt make noise... because there are alot of UNFORTUNATE people out there who couldnt get a q...

Anyway.. enough of the bitching.. i am really looking forward to the selection in Nov/Dec period... hopefully we could get a good flat....

What's going on?

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I really dunno...

Why do i look at other bride.. and think that they looked so blissful.. yet i feel nowhere near?

What has happened? I just wanted to help.... i am really very tired..... Can i just take a knife, slit and end it all?...

I really wanna do that.. i dun wan to quarral anymore... i dun wanna ask anything anymore... i dont wanna care anymore.... i dun wan to do anything anymore...

Dejected Green Mushroom

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Currently... I feel like the dejected green mushroom....

I really dont know what do I want to do with life... sigh...

Leave the place or stay.. everyday.. i am getting more and more dejected and demoralised.... but what can i do after leaving that place then?.... nobody is willing to take me because I have no other experiences to speak of...

I guess this has to be the lousiest decision that I have ever made in my life to come here and waste my life away like that... yes.. i gained monetary gains... but i lost my time to build experiences and now... im just an empty shell...

Where can i go frm here? i dont want to be trapped in this place anymore and be treated like the second class citizen where i get no career advancement.... but if i leave this place.. what can i do?.... sigh...