Sylvia's World...

I am setting you free... because i think you deserve somebody normal....

For me... i live in a negative and blue world... i chose to shut myself in this world.. where everything is sad and unhappy... you said that everybody appears in a person's life for a reason.. maybe yours is just to let me know.. what it is like to be loved and be pampered by somebody..

I see the struggle.. the differences in thots... and most importantly.. your losing of patience... and iti s not lost because of things that i do.. it is lost.. because of something that both of us have no control over...

I am deeply frustrated... maybe you cant feel it... and you think.. i dont care.. but i do.. and everytime i just get very frustrated by it..

You really derseve a normal life... find another person who loves you and is willing to give up everything for you... find a normal girl.. a girl who gets happy easily... who will laugh with you.. and enjoy life's little things with you..

Sorry, i dont have the ability to enjoy anything happy... i only deserve to be alone...

Spent the whole weekend at Yishun with TFB and Cotton and I had to admit, I really enjoyed it.

Staying at home, cooking for TFB, packing the place, trying to get it into a home, playing with Cotton and overall just making the whole place a better place to stay in… But, there is this very unrest feeling that I experienced… That is.. my kids and soft toys are not in this perfect weekend…

While I felt very settled down and happy that we get to spend a weekend doing all these stuff and not driving around, rushing around like mad people, I felt very torn that my kids and soft toys are not there with me.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t find them a chore, in fact, they are still a priority in my life… Without them, Sylvia will not be complete.. but I can’t move them in with me now… which is the worse part of this whole thing….

I would like to move to a place, where there is just TFB, the kids, soft toys and Cotton and I can stay there forever… but.. this place is not going to come so soon.

I feel so torn.. between the two places…. Sigh…

When is my flat gonna be completed?.......... When??????

P.S. But.. despite all this, i am still grateful for having a great life with a great husband and a krever dog...

He is the new love in my life.... Thou he is now a bit yellowish n smelly....

It's been so long since I last posted an entry here.. Well here I'm trying out posting an entry via my iPhone n apparently it is really working!!! I think I'm really starting to explore how to use the phone fully.. (=

Some updates about myself.. Had my wedding on 13 November 2010 at Hilton hotel n I'm really grateful for the wonderful wedding.. Luckily there were no major problems n everything just ram by itself.. Shall blog bout the wedding another day..

Life seems to have taken a downwards spiral recently n everything just seems so hopeless when I found a speck of crystal in my office.. It is a really small speck n it falls off my nails that I did for my wedding day....

The crystal reminds me that it had seen the best of it's moment together with me n reminded me of my happy wedding day.. It is like a sign from whoever upstairs telling me not to give up on life as life has ups n downs.. Nothing last forever n the bad spell will not last forever too.. So long as I continue on with life.. I will see better moments...