Sylvia's World...

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

Yeah i noe that i was complaining in my previous blog that i am gonna fall sick soon... but i still have to write this blog entry down... because i just nd to get it out...

This is entirely dedicated to a couple... never have i ever thot that i would blog bout such a filty creature and his beautiful wife in my blog... but then the filty creature has seriously pushed me to the limit that i have to write something about him to add him into my hall of shame... (just beside Ah Yan)...

Seriously.. hw does it feel... when you are so freakingly ugly yet you have women who throw themselves at you like bees to honey.. and yet everyday you are denying and blabbering nonsense like you are the person who created all the principle of life.. the law and everything.. creating stupid and ridiculous situation which are hell deep for your wife to confuse her... so that she will stay home to be ur maid??.... or do you tink she really look stupid enuff that you just nd to blabber somethings and that will cloud her judgement?.... Dont you tink you are too much??.... oh yeah i forgot.. if you ever have a brain to think.. a heart to feel... then you be able to feel that you are too much.. otherwise.. you are just a piece of junk... dressed in branded clothing and driving a ultra flashy car...

But think bout it... do you seriously think that all these are enuff to cloud the judgement of all the peps ard you??.... like i have always told ur wife and i will repeat again.. dun swear that the lightning will strike you.. For... if you really do.. even if it is a ultra hot day with no water vapour in the air... somehow somewhat a rain will definately be created just to strike you...

Do you seriously think that her family are dead??... or you tink that her family dun care??... well.. you are wrong you jerk... it is just that her family dun tink that it is worth it degrading themselves to stand at the same lvl as you.. but you tink her family dun love her??.. well you are wrong again you jerk... it is not that they dun care... it is just that they are reasonable and peaceful peps who tink that marriage problem should be resolved between the couple themselves and not involve other peps.... but think bout it again jerk... her family will always support her.... she can always go back to her family...

Remember you imposed the rule that your kid can only got to his maternal grandparents side for three time per mth??... and remember hw close he is to one of ur wife's sibling??..... and subsequently.... ur wife was accepted back into her family again??... Please dun underestimate kinship... if her sibling have the ability to tolerate all nonsense and let ur wife gain acceptance into the family.. the same could be done to ensure that she can get a life when she get a divorce frm you...

Seriously... i pity your mum... for ur mum's love has gotten her into alot of trouble.. what do you tink??... that having a flashy car and dun nd her to work is a good thing??.. You are wrong... the most comforting thing that a kid can bring to his/her mum is that they dun no longer need to worry bout their kids.. yet.. because of your you se wu yong behavior... she has to clear the mess that you have created every single time.... filial??.. i doubt.. i challenge and doubt your filial piety.... dun tell me that you are filial.. you are just a jerk who has no guts and nd to hid under ur mum's back everything you create a mess....

Bottomline... you are just a ugly fat loser who needs to hid behind his mum everytime he create a mess... putting you beside a jerk makes the jerk feel ashame of himself too....

Falling sick... i am tired... neck pain.. spine pain... sign that i am falling sick (definately nt sign that i am aging)

Feeling really tired nw.. can i pls have a one month holiday??.. then after that dun nd to go back to work??... hehehehe....

Anyway the purpose of today's blog is to complain that i am sick.. and to discuss about something.. you see.. i seriously seriously seriously want to get a tattoo... (i am not a baddie, just like a tattoo that is all) so i was just wondering what am i supposed to tattoo... THEN.. i just realise something... i can actually tattoo the butterfly on my blog hor??... that butterfly on this box's right top corner, perched there de that one... nice hor??... initially i chose this blog skin because of that butterfly and the description said that it is a butterfly tattoo.. so why nt... hehehe.. i can tattoo butterfly on myself.. and somemore is a nice butterfly!.. what do you tink??... should i or should i not??.. heh heh heh heh heh...

I m having a very confused state of mind right nw.... sigh....

A nw beginning.... as you can see frm my previous blog... i am troubled by something.... haha all i can tell is that.. the cannot really process fact part of me is out again.. and i am playing with fire.... muz i go thru that vicious cycle again?? i hope nt...

Okie back to the sentosa trip.. i went to sentosa today with a few friends.. and we basically spend the whole day there playing and slacking.... i met a very cute dog call Ah Boy that belong to my friend's friend... aw.. he is such a cute dog and he is just a puppy!! he really remind me of Sugar... as anyway anything white and cute always remind me of Sugar and i feel a sense of closeness to them... hahaha... i tink i will miss this cute dog....

Went for the Luge ride... it is fun but the before part is not fun at all.. we had to take the sky ride to the beginning of the Luge ride and that is horrible!!!..... As per what i have said.. i kena cheated by two uncle to go and take the ride.. it was so horrible that i hold tight to the safety bar thru out the whole ride and close my eyes tightly... i was so scared that they say my face was as white as pau (white bun)... okie no matter hw they deny it.. i still see it as kena cheated by two uncle to go and sit that thing... but then the Luge ride is fun!... Though i kena overtaken alot alot alot alot of time.. and i drove that thing like a auntie driving it.. but then it was really fun... if i dun have to take that sky ride.. i tink i would like to try that Luge ride again.. hehehe

But the after taking the ride i definately ban it for LKK and LFL.. because it is too dangerous... because to get to the beginning you have to take the sky ride.. which is definately horrible... so i dun tink they are suitable for it... mayb when they are older ba.. then they can take it... for nw it is definately a no no for them.... and i went home shortly after that because we have to celebrate my dad's birthday today.... feeling so tired nw... *yawnz*

PS... Eat Bread and MMYY... i am playing with fire nw... it is definately one of option given... mayb you all would be interested to guess which one.... my life is not that messy.. at least my characteristic is not... so i am very focus.. it is one of the option.. hahaha.....

Once again.. let me remind you once more time... he is not five dragon... he is a total different person.... pls dun do this.... he is not five dragon....... he is NOT....

Silver, you are Balanced-brained

That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation. When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over. While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker. The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.

I really do.... why???... up till nw.... i will still cry for you??.. despite the many promises that i made to BT that i wun cry for you again??... every person that i have met in my life... i still try to look out for characteristic that resemble you.... and seek comfort in that characteristic that the person have... trying to pretend as if i am still at a place close to you...

Worse... if i see a person that resemble you in alot of way.. i will be drawn to that person like moth to fire... i keep on telling myself... telling other peps that i have kept my heart in that purple box... kept deep deep away.. but i noe that my heart is just waiting.. waiting for you to find it... but i noe too that you will never start finding it... nor be able to find it... then why am i doin this??... It take time to get outta this shadow... but exactly how long do i nd to get outta this shadow... this pretending and waiting phrase is even worse than the first phrase because there is a emptiness and total silence... which is scary.... because you never know what is this person doin again.. so you hope to get his news again... the waiting part is so scary... i will noe better than anybody as to what i have done...

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

in case you all wonder that this is about me and a guy... you all are wrong.. it is about me and a sum of money that is destinated not to be mine... sigh~

Hmm.. today is good friday.. and it feels like saturday.. i have to keep on reminding myself that today is only friday and there is still two more days to slack!....
Nthing much today.. went out to eat sakae sushi with my siblings... mmyy... and the two kids.... then my bro keep on goin the wrong way today.. so we end up spending quite some time on the road.. wanted to go to sugei buloh... but was stopped by strong objection by hbl and mmyy... so din go.. on the way.. we passed by mandai zoo... and we okie.. i wanted to put lfl there.. to lure crocs... hehehe.... but of course i din succeed in getting it done... i will try harder next time... and hbl said that she wanted to get a car.. which is a good idea.. so long as she can afford it.. because she can drive her kids ard.. and we can FINALLY all go out together... and bring lfl to sugei buloh.. throw him into the mud to skip with the mud skipper or get pinched by horse shoe crab.. or if there is a crocs can throw him into the water... hehehe...
And we played maple today... and we have to help mmyy's ultra noob char to lvl up.. and you noe what.. hbl's internet was slow and she was lag for er.... 2 - 3 minute??.. she just stayed in the mid air... hanging there while we start at her character... we have photographs as evidence....

Once again.. i became the ugly duckling who have accidentally wandered into the swam grp.. Sylvia arh sylvia... why do you always have to do this??... why do you always have to wander into the beautiful and high class swam grp just to find that you stick out like a sore thumb and get upset.... because this grp of swam has never wanted you in... they just want to either make use of you.. pity you or mayb they are truly friendly.. but then there is ultimately the cast problem...

Can you pls... do urself a favor.. by sticking to yourself or duckling from your own cast in the future??.. pls do not wonder ard again.. sometime being helpful or nice will only let urself get hurt.. because there is no way you can blend in with them...

So hw does it felt??... to have used me like the way you did??.... you thot that i dunno... and i am stupid... enuff not to sense anything... it is not that i am stupid.. nor that i din sense anything... it is because i dun see the need in acting clever when people want to keep things from me... there is no point in asking... because i am frm the lowest level... i noe i din do much.. but i am just upset at the fact that i was being used like a piece of tissue paper and thrown away when the new tissue paper arrive... is the tissue paper better?? made of better quality??... then this inferior piece of used tissue paper was treated like dirt..... low class item... belong to the lower cast?... ya i think so... if you ask me why i dun bother to strive on.. i tell you because it is no pt... i am never the type of person who will blame the world but myself... but this time... I AM.. i have already tried my best... in all that i have done... but what to do when life decide that i have to end up like a piece of used tissue paper to be thrown away... and view as dirt subsequently?...

I will definately leave when it is time to... if you wanna question me why.. question my endurance... let me tell you this.. what i have gone thru so far.. is nthing compared to the hurt that you two of you have caused.... because i care for you two of you.. i chose to remain silent.... and not hurt the two of you... so that you two can go on.. as if nthing have ever happen.. because you will never realise that i have realise and notice...

P.S... pls dun ask me who is that two person.. people who should noe.. have already known who is this two person.. for the rest.. pls dun ask me... because at least this is the least RESPECT and human right that i can show to these two person.. who have caused me so much hurt...

Okie... recently a series of thing happen... and after all this happening.. i realise something... i dun have lownut life.... erm okie.. let me explain first... donuts are sweet... because they either have a coat of sugar.. or chocolate or chocolate with peanuts... either case.. they are sweet... so there are alot of young girls out that who have lownut life... sweet and no matter who they mit.. the person who mit them will have this 'aiyo so cute.. so weak.. muz protect her' tinking popping outta the mind... be it.. their friends... their bosses.. their colleagues etc etc etc... will try their best to protect them... AND there are peps like me.. who have well mayb a sugarless black coffee life... dark.. and bitter... pep see pep avoid... thinking that coffee can hold themselve.. dun nd a single protection nor help.. this type of peps.. are usually the type who are seen/assumed that will protect the lownut life peps...

So i have decide that i have enuff... if i dun have donut life then dun have donut life lah... but you muz remember.. if i have black coffee life.. then i will be strong and hang on.. but i will never protect the donut life peps.. for.. what for??.. i am a cup of black coffee that has turn bad... beside being dark and bitter.. i am sour too... so blah blah ... i hate peps with lownut life.. because no matter hw hard the dark coffee life peps work... their effort will always be outshined by the lownut life peps by a mere smile or sweet talk...

Orh.. how sweet.... shut up and get outta my blog you lownut life peps...