Sylvia's World...

Hmm found this song on youtube.. like it quite alot.. reason being.. check out the lyrics.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjQUtPBSmkY

Anyway.. some updates on my life.. started my new job for three weeks le.. today i am on mc.. coz i am suffering from a 'package' illness that is inclusive of giddiness, cough, sore throat and flu.. that is how the doc term it.. it all comes in a package when i told him i feel giddy.. My neph.. LKK is in hospital.. some doc say he got pneumonia.. some say otherwise.. nt too sure yet what is wrong wif him.. but he cant be discharge yet.. coz doc say that they had to monitor that he does not have fever for 24 hr first then he can be discharged.. he was admitted into the hospital yesterday morning at ard 3am.. then i wanted to go and visit him.. and really meant to visit him.. spend time there with him.. accompany him..

Then i realise something... i am cold blooded.. i nv know how it felt like when you attend the funeral of somebody that you love deeply.. feel that heart pain feeling.. i always thot that when friends surrounding me lost their grandparents they will feel sad and the type of heartpain that i have nv felt before.. afterall i was nv close to my grandparents.. so when they pass away.. i was okie.. no heart pain.. not really griefing.. and i realise that i nv know what it meant like to really whole heartly wants to visit somebody in the hospital either.. coz i was thinking yesterday.. i am going to stay at the hospital for a longer time wif LKK.. then i thot what was i goin to do while staying there wif him.. then i thot of what i used to do when i was young and in the past when i visit a person.. then i realise that everytime when i goes to the hospital to visit somebody else in the hospital.. the impact is not that great.. cant really get connected to the patient.. i will feel sorry for them.. but then the concern lvl is never really very great...

Conclusion: I am cold blooded.. once i give up on somebody.. i can really be feelingless...

Found this item on youtube.. like the song instantly... wanna guess why i like the song??.. *hint**hint* take note of the lyrics..

Today was a very bad day.. initially yesterday when i planned for the outin with karen.. today still seems to be a not bad day.. till the morning i wake up.. then everything starts to go wrong.. firstly i quarralled with my sis in maplesea.. and she cried.. and i tink the whole world is goin to think i am the big bully.. because this is always the case.. the chili padi would always be the big bully and the one who is wrong.. in any case i dun feel like explaining.. coz when i TRIED explaining to her inside maple why am i so pissed off.. i tink the idea din get into her mind.. all she does was keep on sayin 'Then'.. which make me even more irriated.. so i logged off.. because i also need to go out le.. and she thot that i dun wan her to come over to stay that is why i come up with some crap ting like this.. how laughable.. after all that i have done.. to bring her and her kids back into our family.. now she is sayin that i am coming up with some crap excuse to nt let her stay over.. it is sooooo funny that it seems like a joke to me..
So sian about coming back today, but still has to.. to make things worse.. my house gate was locked.. so i cannot enter.. and my leg automatically bring me to take bus 88.. to a place.. and this is like just the rite moment to think bout him again rite??.. when all sad things happened together.. sittin at the bus stop opp that place i went to.. i started to think bout all the thing that had happened.... Tears start to swell up in my eyes.. why izzit that everytime i am down.. i will start to tink bout him again.. and think bout how much better thing would be and how comforting it would be if he right beside with me.. but he is not there.. to top things off i read thru two blog of my friends'.. know that they are also having some problem with their life.. what a day..i am not on talking term with my mother because of ugly and disgustin relatives of hers.. i quarralled with my sis because she thot i am masterminding this major plan to prevent her from stay over at my house... just at this moment memories of him had to pop up.. and i noe that two of my friends are feeling down.. It seems like the world is in down mode today.. haizz...

Third day at work.. second day of forgetting to bring out my hp.. seems like life is bored here.. currently lor.. and i have been feeling rather stressed up... dunno why.. i just feel stressed... mayb it is the fact that nobody talks to me.. sometime i really missed workin upstairs.. due to the human contact... i can tok to my colleague... i felt so well protected.. but nw i am all alone down here... it felt rather sad and depressed... okie enuff.. yesterday i played maple and just lvl up to lvl 28.. i had this fairy top and fairy dress that can only be wore by magician of lvl 28 and above... initially i was really looking forward to wearing it.. coz it really look nice... but who noes... when i really get to wear it.. it is like yuck!... The dress made my character Bevia look plump... and yi dian dou bu hao kan.... it doesnt have the v. impressive look... in fact it look like a tea dress with translucent shelves on a plump girl.. Ke lian de Bevia would have to wear that for the rest of her time till she lvl again to lvl 33 then she has something else to wear...
Haizz... anyway i am v. tired.. coz i have been mapling for the past two nites and have nt enuff sleep.. really very tired.. i guess due to the depression and stress that i am suffering.. i have not been eating well this two days too... will feel full.. then later will feel hungry and yesterday even worse.. after i had eaten myh dinner.. immediately i feel so very full that i feel like vomittin.. really worried leh.. dunno what is wrong with my body... it just gets this way... i feel depressed.. no strenght... my facial expression is always a frown... i have migraine... and i dun feel like eatin... haizz...

Well... yesterday we had a jedi council meeting.. haha this thing actually came up just a few days before.. coz all our parents were out of town.. so we cousins (including me, my bro, my sis, tze, LD and gangee) form up this council... actually at my maternal side.. there are seven of us.. but we were super anti this youngest cousin of ours coz of his snobbish behavior and his parent's (oh we are so high and mighty high up and you ppl are our poor slaves behavior) as well.. so we really dun like him.. so when our parents were out of town, we actually went over to my tze's house.. and we din ask him to join us.. in fact.. we din even inform him.. when me and gangee discussed this with LD on sunday.. he was saying.. for wat!.. he is not even in the Jedi Council.. so here it is.. a new grouping formed.. it is called
The Jedi Council..
The Mission: To anti Winky because of his snobbish behavior
The Vision: To create a great environment full of fun peace and happiness w/o Winky and Winky's parents.