Sylvia's World...

Happy Happy Lunar New Year to everybody... mayb everybody have a fruitful year ahead and collect alot of hongbao.. haha

Anyway.. i was chatting with my bro yesterday... then i was telling him that if i want to get scolded on the first day of new year.. i will just have to go to my parent's room, wake my dad up and greet him Happy New Year.. nt because he is a grumpy old man or because he dun like new year.. is because he kena wake up by moi so he will be grumpy.. then i suddenly remember an incident that happened when i was in pri school.. tis ting really happened.. but it was reversed... i remember that year my mum was workin and she assigned the task of prayin to my dad... since young i was fancinated by prayin during CNY nite.. so i told my dad that he muz wake me up when he is going to start praying... and i fall asleep.. then when he wake me up.. i was in a super grumpy mood... and when he gif me the hongbao.. i say i dun wan and throw the hongbao on the floor... i was sooooo guilty for throwin the hongbao that he gave me on the floor.. that also reminds me why i was so close to my dad.. coz he always held me close to his heart... i was like super nice to my dad after that coz i feel that he had made the effort to give me the hongbao yet a rude girl like me just dump the hongbao on the floor and vent my anger during CNY..

I suddenly remember this fact.. and why my moto is to be a filial daughter.. but looking back after i started workin.. somehow because of the change of environment as well as the stress blah blah blah... i start to forget about this.. and start being extremely rude to them sometime.. when i am in bad mood and when they step on my tail... i really dun understand why.. sometime straight after i quarral with them i will immediately feel bad about it... but just cant bring myself to tok to them anymore...

SO... in this lunar new year.. i have grown stronger... i have come to agree that nobody... NOBODY can push me around like a pushover.. coz my parents held me close to their heart.. nobody have the rite to taunt me.. bully me.. step over my life.. or even ruin my life because my life is reserved for my parents.. only they have the rite to do the.. the rest who want to bully me blah blah.. please scram aside... and i will try to be nicer to my parents from now on...

This is a type of fish that ppl usually eat when they are recoverin from a wound.. it aid in healing of the wounds... but i have never eaten tis type of fish before.. and if i had in the past then i felt ashame that i have eaten them.. coz they way that they are being killed is way tooooo cruel... i always know how they were being killed. since i went to market one time with my mum and saw a man take a stick and keep on hammering the poor fish's head till it is dead.. today i saw this scene again.. and it is not just one fish you noe.. it is a few fishes at the same time that the man is hammering.. i mean image this scene, the man have a few sheng yu around him, then he hammer this one and turn around to hammer another one while the other one tried desperately to slide away only to be push back to the original spot by the man's feet and kena hammer on the head again.. i mean each time i hear a thump sound.. my heart jus skip a beat.. i felt the pain in my heart each time i hear the thump sound..

I mean.. is there really such a need to go to such extend to kill the fish??.. the poor fish... why muz it be hammered to death??... when a human get hammered to death.. we pity the human tinkin that ohh he/she muz have suffered a great deal of pain before he/she died.. but why when this is applied to animals... human are so cruel??.. tink of tis at the fish's last few moment.. it would be in such great pain for nothing!!!.... izzit because that this would keep the fish fresher that is why they have to do this.. for the price of being a bit more tasty, the fish would have to suffer such terrible fate before it die!!... I remember that i watched a documentary before about how those kind of tian ji(frog) are being killed.. they are being literally chopped into half when they are still alive!.. then the head will go to the rubbish bin and you can still see it moving... i used to love tian ji.. but ever since i saw that documentary.. i no longer eat it.. no matter how much i love to eat it.. i decide to gif up because i feel that just to satisfy my own taste bud.. i have to cause the poor frog to suffer like tis is really nt worth it.. ppl want to kill that is not within my control but at least i cant control myself and dun eat them.. at least it make a diff that not so many of the suffer...

I really feel very sad for all these animals who died a painful/slow/agony death in the name of delicacies.. i mean it is really nt worth it!!... I really hope that all this animal that died a painful/slow/agony death would be able to find peace in their afterlife and not suffer anymore.. and hope ppl will stop killing animals in such a sick way...

Well.. i have alot of doubts this few days hor.. first i doubt about love.. nw i doubt about family.. nt that i am a problem kid.. but then just that sometime the reaction that ppl gif you is makes you really very sian... and you just get totally disappointed with them.. why do you need to do so much for them when in the end you just get scoldin??... suanin??... ppl sayin that you are bo liao??... i guess it is really alot better to live for myself.. because without helpin ppl automatically there is no expectation and i am able to protect myself better... look.. i am really sick and tired of gettin scolded... when i did nothing wrong... another freaking ppl who scold me without any valid reason is goin to get it from me... and i am really tired.. so dun expect any help frm me anymore... coz i am sick and tired of planning, helpin and all i get in the end is that i am bo liao.. i shouldnt have help... and some more scolding..

Well.. went to watch I Not Stupid Too yesterday.. the show is nt bad.. the issue is something that is very close to home and very close to heart.. and it is quite funny... so a watchable show afterall.. then went home.. my sis wanted to go back to her home.. and requested for either her hubby or her mother in law to come and drive her.. unfortunately to her expectation.. they turn her down.. coz her hubby as irresponsible as ever was busy with other freaking things.. and her mother in law as usual lmwna (refer to me if you wan to noe what is the meaning) did not want to come and drive her.. so we have to wait at the taxi stand there for taxi.. and there was a looooong q of ppl at the tai stand waiting for taxis while i was at the side there calling for cab.. and there is nt even a single cab available for calling.. i am amazed.. anyway.. as i was call a cab.. a thot pop up in my mind.. how good will it be.. if i have a prince charming that drives a car... if i am caught in this type of situation.. then my prince charming will definately be there to save me.. then another thot pop up.. reality check.. suddenly i thot of my sis..
she is.... married
her husband... drive
her husband... have a car
but she is now.... waiting for a cab
and her husband.... refused to come and drive her
this thot push me back to reality.. then i suddenly realise that even if you have a bf or prince charming or blah.. that doesnt mean that they will come and drive you or save you out of dangerous situation you noe.. they might go out and drive the whole singapore but they will NEVER drive you ard.. i shall nt mention who.. otherwise later my sis get a divorce then i am dead coz i am still nt financially stable enuff to support my sis and her two son.... so.. the moral of this story is that i am super pissed off.. with some inconsiderate idiots whom brain is smaller that those of germs (a new phrase i learnt from my colleague yesterday... =D) and i realise that doesnt mean that you have bf/husband/fiance/prince charming/ blah blah blah you will live happily ever after you noe.. mayb you might end up leaving happily ever after you noe.. so i still think that rather than a prince charming.. why not have tons and tons of money.. at least if you have tons of money you can purchase a car urself and get the freakin license.. that day you wan to travel to jb and come back to singapore at 12am in the morning also can.. coz you are freaking rich.. you have the transport urself.. you dun have to rely on other idiots.. money vs bf.. i feels that money is still the best.. so give me money anytime.. i will welcome them...

*Disclaimer: i am not tryin to say that there is no nice guys around in the whole world but just that i have not met any and doubt that i will met any in my life. I believe that there are still nice guys around in the world okie..... and i believe that there ARE girls out there who truly meet their prince charming who is REALLY charming and live happily ever after...

Yeah!!.. finally my new computer is here.. that means that i can surf the net again.. this should be a happy thing.. but somehow my heart felt v. heavy.. I should be feeling v. happy now.. coz tis is my weekend off.. next week is cny that means that i can slack.. and i just applied for a degree course that means that i will be able to obtain my degree and my new computer is here that means that i am able to use the new computer again.. but i still dun feel good.. today i just sort of quarralled with my bro over the computer issue again.. because i have quarralled with him over this issue for a lot of time.. Haizz initially is about purchasing of the computer because he dragged his feet on helpin me purchase a computer and is only when i nag and nag and scream at him then he help me to order the computer.. then he told me this.. i own you one izzit.. then i noe that mayb i am really too much already.. then today the computer arrived.. i was waiting for him to help me assemble the computer and remove the big monitor that i originally have.. but he told me that he will ask me to use the big monitor again.. fyi that one is goin to be spoilt and i seriously dun like using use a big monitor.. so once again i flared up.. and told him that he will NEVER help me to put on the small monitor after cny until the big monitor really break down first then he will come after a long time and help me to put on the small monitor.. and once again he told me that i own you one izzit.. somehow i just feel bad.. coz mayb they all meant good for me.. that they will really keep to their promise but it was my selfish bitchy character that make me not trust them.. the unhappiness that things dun go my way make me flare up.. and scream at him.. i feel really guilty for that.. because of this it pratically spoilt my mood that i had enrolled into a uni as well as gettin a new computer... i am so sick and tired of my bitchy selfish way.. i guess it is time to be nicer to my love ones and control my temper and not flare up at them...

21-01-06 in memory of my old big poor monitor which i have dumped away.. good bye monitor...

Well.. first of all.. i would like to thank all friends who bother to come for my 21th bday party.. hehe it is a bit early lah holding it at 13 Jan06 when my birthday falls inFeb... i myself also dun feel like in the bday mood that day... but seeing all of you really makes me v. happy and i thoroughly enjoyed myself that day... thanks for all the presents that you all have given me.. i really like all of them alot.. not because i gain something new or anyting but because it symbolise your care for me.. meaning that a friend actually bother to take the effort to get me something.. get headache over what to buy for me.. shows that you all care for me.. i believe that the gift come from the bottom of the heart of each and everyone of you.. that was the reason why i like the gift so much.. and i hope that the gift din burn a big hole ur pocket.. hehe

For those that cannot make it and bother to call and explain to me why you all cannot come.. you are forgiven.. after all i can expect the world to stop just because it is my birthday.. and the fact that you bother to call to inform me that you cannot come is already enough for me to forgive you... HOWEVER those that din turn up and din bother to gif me a call... well i had enough of this kind of rubbish.. so for those that say will come and din come and definately din sms or call me to inform me.. you noe who you are and definately you wun be hearing from me again.. because i dun see the need in contacting somebody who does not bother/care bout me...

Well some of you might have thot.. wah lau y so petty... ppl only din come.. well i nv say that i am nice in the first place and this ppl should at least inform me.. instead of not coming and not telling.. this is v. disappointing you noe.. Okie enough of all this tok bout this ppl who din even bother about me..

Once again i would like to thank everybody who attended my party because i am really v. happy that day... have nv really enjoyed myself so much for a loooong time..
Special thanks to Bee Ting for helping me out after she come.. she is basically like the maid that day coz she help me to serve my secondary school friend..
Secondly want to thank my family for helpin me.. hehe comein to my aid at the snap of my finger... in case you all wonder why i say thank to Bee Ting first then my family is because.... Bee Ting is my friend mah.. she is not blood related to me.. therefore actually she does not need to help me one.. while the rest are my family mah.. so due to the blood relation they have to help me.. but i do really appreciate the help because they actually also dun really need to help me one.. hehe...
Kie kie turning 21 yet i am still as nonsenscial as ever and as childish as ever... think that i might grow up a bit after i turn 21??.. Fat hope.. i will never want to grow up.. being childish is good.. of course in time of need you can definately count on me.. if you are not in my hated list.. haha...
Kie kie will blog about my 21 reflection on 3 Feb.. in the meantime keep checking in.. i doubt i will blog again till 3 feb coz my computer is down!.. so i have to wait till my new computer arrive first then i will be active again.. Haha
Tata

P.S Chan Mei Ling who also mia from my party that day i noe that this is unlike you given that you have informed your supervisor before hand, so please give me a call to tell me what happened...

Well.. here we are at 2006.. suddenly i feel sad.. erm.. well sorta tinkin bout him again.. okie you all are going to do nt again!!... but i really dunno why... if i know why mayb i wun haf to suffer from heartache again and again like nobody's business.. that day i was plannin for what i want to do in the future.. study and blah.. and it will be another 3 -4 yr before i will obtain my degree.. then this question pop up my mind.. 4 yrs later.. will i still suffer from heartache when i think of him??.. something that i dunno.. when you have a heartache because you are thinkin of sumbody.. how do you ease the pain??...
Haizz...

Had a catfight with my bro.. nt just one.. in fact it is a few catfights in a few days time... i feel that it is nt that i am gettin too bitchy or anyting.. but then it is that the way he say things and blah sometime it is a bit funny and that is when i wil start to argue with him and then we will end up in a verbal catfight.. I mean image this situation.. this shop is closing at 8.. i called them to beg them to close at 8.15 so that we can reach there to purchase sometime.. and the time when i called is ard 7.40 and he is finishing his food lor... then he say you go urself hor.. you will be angry rite... after beggin the shop and blah.. then he just sit down there and say you go urself lor.. and after tat he told my sis that he is just kiddin wif me.. i mean this kind of thing is nt funny lor.. so please nv kid bout this kind of things again in the future.. like later part when i say i dun wan to go he also pissed off.. so it is actually the same what the situation if he is also pissed off then he should know that it is nt a nice joke... so please dun do tis in the future....