Oh hi 2012!
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Good bye 2011!
I dont think I will ever miss you...
Just like antibiotics that you need when you are sick, you need antibiotics to get well, but you definitely dont miss it, or even love it.
That is how I view 2011. It's a nasty year, left a nasty taste in the mouth, it's a year that I dont want to go through again. Yet, I chose to view it as a year necessary for me to grow up.
Loads happened in 2011 and I dont want to go into details, just as what people always like to tell me and I always dont like to listen to them, let bygones be bygones.
However, I am still thankfu to all the life lesson that 2011 has given me.
It taught me to
1) Love myself more - You use your money to buy people birthday present, when it is your birthday, you hope that the person will do the same. Love is abou the same. You spend that amount of love on other people during their birthday to make them feel loved and hoep that these people will return the favour and make you feel loved on your birthday too. But why do you have to give up your love and hope that you will be loved back? If the person truly love you, there is no need to hope for them to love you. You know they love you. The rest of the population who doesnt love you just simply dont deserve your love. Stop buying pressie for others and start loving yourself.
2) Ignore Others - There is no need to prove to these people that I am smart, capable or peaceful. Why? Because I do not get money out of proving myself to them. Will their accusation of me being stupid and bitchy kills me? No, it wouldnt, unless I let it affect me (which sadly, happened many times). Result of letting these fools affect me with their mindless content? Quicken aging, dull skin and not beautiful anymore. So why comproise my health and beauty for fools?
3) Love the parents.. UNCONDITIONALLY - I have said it many time, never done it before. At the end of 2011, I found peace with myself. For the first time in my life, I am no longer angry with mumzillan for giving too much to her relatives, or her relatives coming to show off all the tie. Mumzilla is mumzilla, those idiots are those idiots. They are not associated to mumzilla in anyway. End of story...
After some reflection, foolish me realised that 'whoever upstairs' did not let me go... Never!
2011 was hard and 'whoever upstairs' knew it, and sent Cottony to me. There is absolutely no reason why I would buy a dog suddently, after being afraid of dogs for my whole life.
This dog is the reason that I managed to get thru 2011 alive. Many times, during the multiple quarrels with the husband, Cotton will come to me with the "Are you alright?" look. I will get reminded that even if the whole world does notlove me, this little white dog here loves me and if i die, he will be very poor thing.. even if it is for a while, his heart will be broken.
I have always believe that Cotton is fated to appear in my life to be my pet at a point of my life, but "whoever upstairs" chose to send him down before the dark period of my life to accompany me.
I am really thankful for that. Cotton is a good dog who has done a good job in accompanying his owners, I beg "whoever upstairs" to let him lead a good ripe old age life and ides off peacefully in his sleep with no pain. By ripe old age, I mean 10 years and above okay?
Okay, in the year 2012, I wish to fulfil a few things and I am SERIOUS about fulfilling them...
1) Empower myself with more authority and not be treated as second class citizen and feel that it is alright anymore. For many years, I have gone with the flow of things and not question anything because I leave everything to life. However, I realised that to fully taste life, you have to take things into hand sometimes and not just go with the flow and accept life without even trying another alternative right? So I shall try and ask and question so that I am given full rights as equal as any other humans and If I am not given and reasons are provided, I wil treat it as the good or bad of life.
2) Be healthy and beautiful. I am serious about this. Perhaps the slimming down even more made me realised that there is a whole lot more stuff that I could do to myself to ensure that I stay healthy and beautiful instead of just relying on my own body to make things happen and maintain itself. Dont be lazy, be more hardworking.
3) Lead a happy life. As mentioned in the above two wishes, you know, to live for 26 years as a ugly second class citizen is no fun and I am definitely not happy. After trying to apply the above mentioned two goals for a while, I realised that I can actually be happy (of course this is inclusive of the changes that I have learnt in 2011) and I am really in a pretty happy state of mind now. I promise not to think too much because thinking will not prevent it and nothing will happen since iti s just thinking. As part of my to lead a happy life project, I am very very very determined to get my degree by this Oct too!
All in all, lets just say that I want to lead a carefree and beautiful life...
Lets work towards a carefree, beautiful and good 2012!
I dont think I will ever miss you...
Just like antibiotics that you need when you are sick, you need antibiotics to get well, but you definitely dont miss it, or even love it.
That is how I view 2011. It's a nasty year, left a nasty taste in the mouth, it's a year that I dont want to go through again. Yet, I chose to view it as a year necessary for me to grow up.
Loads happened in 2011 and I dont want to go into details, just as what people always like to tell me and I always dont like to listen to them, let bygones be bygones.
However, I am still thankfu to all the life lesson that 2011 has given me.
It taught me to
1) Love myself more - You use your money to buy people birthday present, when it is your birthday, you hope that the person will do the same. Love is abou the same. You spend that amount of love on other people during their birthday to make them feel loved and hoep that these people will return the favour and make you feel loved on your birthday too. But why do you have to give up your love and hope that you will be loved back? If the person truly love you, there is no need to hope for them to love you. You know they love you. The rest of the population who doesnt love you just simply dont deserve your love. Stop buying pressie for others and start loving yourself.
2) Ignore Others - There is no need to prove to these people that I am smart, capable or peaceful. Why? Because I do not get money out of proving myself to them. Will their accusation of me being stupid and bitchy kills me? No, it wouldnt, unless I let it affect me (which sadly, happened many times). Result of letting these fools affect me with their mindless content? Quicken aging, dull skin and not beautiful anymore. So why comproise my health and beauty for fools?
3) Love the parents.. UNCONDITIONALLY - I have said it many time, never done it before. At the end of 2011, I found peace with myself. For the first time in my life, I am no longer angry with mumzillan for giving too much to her relatives, or her relatives coming to show off all the tie. Mumzilla is mumzilla, those idiots are those idiots. They are not associated to mumzilla in anyway. End of story...
After some reflection, foolish me realised that 'whoever upstairs' did not let me go... Never!
2011 was hard and 'whoever upstairs' knew it, and sent Cottony to me. There is absolutely no reason why I would buy a dog suddently, after being afraid of dogs for my whole life.
This dog is the reason that I managed to get thru 2011 alive. Many times, during the multiple quarrels with the husband, Cotton will come to me with the "Are you alright?" look. I will get reminded that even if the whole world does notlove me, this little white dog here loves me and if i die, he will be very poor thing.. even if it is for a while, his heart will be broken.
I have always believe that Cotton is fated to appear in my life to be my pet at a point of my life, but "whoever upstairs" chose to send him down before the dark period of my life to accompany me.
I am really thankful for that. Cotton is a good dog who has done a good job in accompanying his owners, I beg "whoever upstairs" to let him lead a good ripe old age life and ides off peacefully in his sleep with no pain. By ripe old age, I mean 10 years and above okay?
Okay, in the year 2012, I wish to fulfil a few things and I am SERIOUS about fulfilling them...
1) Empower myself with more authority and not be treated as second class citizen and feel that it is alright anymore. For many years, I have gone with the flow of things and not question anything because I leave everything to life. However, I realised that to fully taste life, you have to take things into hand sometimes and not just go with the flow and accept life without even trying another alternative right? So I shall try and ask and question so that I am given full rights as equal as any other humans and If I am not given and reasons are provided, I wil treat it as the good or bad of life.
2) Be healthy and beautiful. I am serious about this. Perhaps the slimming down even more made me realised that there is a whole lot more stuff that I could do to myself to ensure that I stay healthy and beautiful instead of just relying on my own body to make things happen and maintain itself. Dont be lazy, be more hardworking.
3) Lead a happy life. As mentioned in the above two wishes, you know, to live for 26 years as a ugly second class citizen is no fun and I am definitely not happy. After trying to apply the above mentioned two goals for a while, I realised that I can actually be happy (of course this is inclusive of the changes that I have learnt in 2011) and I am really in a pretty happy state of mind now. I promise not to think too much because thinking will not prevent it and nothing will happen since iti s just thinking. As part of my to lead a happy life project, I am very very very determined to get my degree by this Oct too!
All in all, lets just say that I want to lead a carefree and beautiful life...
Lets work towards a carefree, beautiful and good 2012!
