Sylvia's World...

When u are constantly told that ur really special and talented in doing something... And then being told during argument time that what ur doing us actually not special and most people can do it, emptying ur whole pride instantaneously.. The feeling is like.. Ur sitting on a cloud in one moment and then got pushed down the cloud and free fall all the way till u crashed on the surface of earth..

Feeling is nasty, unpleasant and definitely not nice. I have been the underdog for ten thousand years. If u don't find what I'm doing special, don't feed my ego. The worse thing is to feed my underdog ego and making it feel that finally I'm good at something just to be told casually in argument that it is nothing special, slamming my ego to death immediately.

I don't need ur assurance, never in the past, struggled with it in the present and feels that I'm more comfortable without it in the future. If ur haywire and cannot control ur emotion or trail of thots, please don't get me involved and spin out if control with you.

Ur ego is ego... It's meant to be respected and loved... No matter what fucking thots it has... My ego is meant to be trample on, insulted and thrown away..

Sorry is not enough, $10 is not enough either.. Fuck it, I don't even know what can appease me now...

If I keep quiet, don't try and bitchfit on me... I cannot tell you what will happen, but I can guarantee that it will be ugly.