Sylvia's World...

Happy Happy Lunar New Year to everybody... mayb everybody have a fruitful year ahead and collect alot of hongbao.. haha

Anyway.. i was chatting with my bro yesterday... then i was telling him that if i want to get scolded on the first day of new year.. i will just have to go to my parent's room, wake my dad up and greet him Happy New Year.. nt because he is a grumpy old man or because he dun like new year.. is because he kena wake up by moi so he will be grumpy.. then i suddenly remember an incident that happened when i was in pri school.. tis ting really happened.. but it was reversed... i remember that year my mum was workin and she assigned the task of prayin to my dad... since young i was fancinated by prayin during CNY nite.. so i told my dad that he muz wake me up when he is going to start praying... and i fall asleep.. then when he wake me up.. i was in a super grumpy mood... and when he gif me the hongbao.. i say i dun wan and throw the hongbao on the floor... i was sooooo guilty for throwin the hongbao that he gave me on the floor.. that also reminds me why i was so close to my dad.. coz he always held me close to his heart... i was like super nice to my dad after that coz i feel that he had made the effort to give me the hongbao yet a rude girl like me just dump the hongbao on the floor and vent my anger during CNY..

I suddenly remember this fact.. and why my moto is to be a filial daughter.. but looking back after i started workin.. somehow because of the change of environment as well as the stress blah blah blah... i start to forget about this.. and start being extremely rude to them sometime.. when i am in bad mood and when they step on my tail... i really dun understand why.. sometime straight after i quarral with them i will immediately feel bad about it... but just cant bring myself to tok to them anymore...

SO... in this lunar new year.. i have grown stronger... i have come to agree that nobody... NOBODY can push me around like a pushover.. coz my parents held me close to their heart.. nobody have the rite to taunt me.. bully me.. step over my life.. or even ruin my life because my life is reserved for my parents.. only they have the rite to do the.. the rest who want to bully me blah blah.. please scram aside... and i will try to be nicer to my parents from now on...

This is a type of fish that ppl usually eat when they are recoverin from a wound.. it aid in healing of the wounds... but i have never eaten tis type of fish before.. and if i had in the past then i felt ashame that i have eaten them.. coz they way that they are being killed is way tooooo cruel... i always know how they were being killed. since i went to market one time with my mum and saw a man take a stick and keep on hammering the poor fish's head till it is dead.. today i saw this scene again.. and it is not just one fish you noe.. it is a few fishes at the same time that the man is hammering.. i mean image this scene, the man have a few sheng yu around him, then he hammer this one and turn around to hammer another one while the other one tried desperately to slide away only to be push back to the original spot by the man's feet and kena hammer on the head again.. i mean each time i hear a thump sound.. my heart jus skip a beat.. i felt the pain in my heart each time i hear the thump sound..

I mean.. is there really such a need to go to such extend to kill the fish??.. the poor fish... why muz it be hammered to death??... when a human get hammered to death.. we pity the human tinkin that ohh he/she muz have suffered a great deal of pain before he/she died.. but why when this is applied to animals... human are so cruel??.. tink of tis at the fish's last few moment.. it would be in such great pain for nothing!!!.... izzit because that this would keep the fish fresher that is why they have to do this.. for the price of being a bit more tasty, the fish would have to suffer such terrible fate before it die!!... I remember that i watched a documentary before about how those kind of tian ji(frog) are being killed.. they are being literally chopped into half when they are still alive!.. then the head will go to the rubbish bin and you can still see it moving... i used to love tian ji.. but ever since i saw that documentary.. i no longer eat it.. no matter how much i love to eat it.. i decide to gif up because i feel that just to satisfy my own taste bud.. i have to cause the poor frog to suffer like tis is really nt worth it.. ppl want to kill that is not within my control but at least i cant control myself and dun eat them.. at least it make a diff that not so many of the suffer...

I really feel very sad for all these animals who died a painful/slow/agony death in the name of delicacies.. i mean it is really nt worth it!!... I really hope that all this animal that died a painful/slow/agony death would be able to find peace in their afterlife and not suffer anymore.. and hope ppl will stop killing animals in such a sick way...

Well.. i have alot of doubts this few days hor.. first i doubt about love.. nw i doubt about family.. nt that i am a problem kid.. but then just that sometime the reaction that ppl gif you is makes you really very sian... and you just get totally disappointed with them.. why do you need to do so much for them when in the end you just get scoldin??... suanin??... ppl sayin that you are bo liao??... i guess it is really alot better to live for myself.. because without helpin ppl automatically there is no expectation and i am able to protect myself better... look.. i am really sick and tired of gettin scolded... when i did nothing wrong... another freaking ppl who scold me without any valid reason is goin to get it from me... and i am really tired.. so dun expect any help frm me anymore... coz i am sick and tired of planning, helpin and all i get in the end is that i am bo liao.. i shouldnt have help... and some more scolding..

Well.. went to watch I Not Stupid Too yesterday.. the show is nt bad.. the issue is something that is very close to home and very close to heart.. and it is quite funny... so a watchable show afterall.. then went home.. my sis wanted to go back to her home.. and requested for either her hubby or her mother in law to come and drive her.. unfortunately to her expectation.. they turn her down.. coz her hubby as irresponsible as ever was busy with other freaking things.. and her mother in law as usual lmwna (refer to me if you wan to noe what is the meaning) did not want to come and drive her.. so we have to wait at the taxi stand there for taxi.. and there was a looooong q of ppl at the tai stand waiting for taxis while i was at the side there calling for cab.. and there is nt even a single cab available for calling.. i am amazed.. anyway.. as i was call a cab.. a thot pop up in my mind.. how good will it be.. if i have a prince charming that drives a car... if i am caught in this type of situation.. then my prince charming will definately be there to save me.. then another thot pop up.. reality check.. suddenly i thot of my sis..
she is.... married
her husband... drive
her husband... have a car
but she is now.... waiting for a cab
and her husband.... refused to come and drive her
this thot push me back to reality.. then i suddenly realise that even if you have a bf or prince charming or blah.. that doesnt mean that they will come and drive you or save you out of dangerous situation you noe.. they might go out and drive the whole singapore but they will NEVER drive you ard.. i shall nt mention who.. otherwise later my sis get a divorce then i am dead coz i am still nt financially stable enuff to support my sis and her two son.... so.. the moral of this story is that i am super pissed off.. with some inconsiderate idiots whom brain is smaller that those of germs (a new phrase i learnt from my colleague yesterday... =D) and i realise that doesnt mean that you have bf/husband/fiance/prince charming/ blah blah blah you will live happily ever after you noe.. mayb you might end up leaving happily ever after you noe.. so i still think that rather than a prince charming.. why not have tons and tons of money.. at least if you have tons of money you can purchase a car urself and get the freakin license.. that day you wan to travel to jb and come back to singapore at 12am in the morning also can.. coz you are freaking rich.. you have the transport urself.. you dun have to rely on other idiots.. money vs bf.. i feels that money is still the best.. so give me money anytime.. i will welcome them...

*Disclaimer: i am not tryin to say that there is no nice guys around in the whole world but just that i have not met any and doubt that i will met any in my life. I believe that there are still nice guys around in the world okie..... and i believe that there ARE girls out there who truly meet their prince charming who is REALLY charming and live happily ever after...

Yeah!!.. finally my new computer is here.. that means that i can surf the net again.. this should be a happy thing.. but somehow my heart felt v. heavy.. I should be feeling v. happy now.. coz tis is my weekend off.. next week is cny that means that i can slack.. and i just applied for a degree course that means that i will be able to obtain my degree and my new computer is here that means that i am able to use the new computer again.. but i still dun feel good.. today i just sort of quarralled with my bro over the computer issue again.. because i have quarralled with him over this issue for a lot of time.. Haizz initially is about purchasing of the computer because he dragged his feet on helpin me purchase a computer and is only when i nag and nag and scream at him then he help me to order the computer.. then he told me this.. i own you one izzit.. then i noe that mayb i am really too much already.. then today the computer arrived.. i was waiting for him to help me assemble the computer and remove the big monitor that i originally have.. but he told me that he will ask me to use the big monitor again.. fyi that one is goin to be spoilt and i seriously dun like using use a big monitor.. so once again i flared up.. and told him that he will NEVER help me to put on the small monitor after cny until the big monitor really break down first then he will come after a long time and help me to put on the small monitor.. and once again he told me that i own you one izzit.. somehow i just feel bad.. coz mayb they all meant good for me.. that they will really keep to their promise but it was my selfish bitchy character that make me not trust them.. the unhappiness that things dun go my way make me flare up.. and scream at him.. i feel really guilty for that.. because of this it pratically spoilt my mood that i had enrolled into a uni as well as gettin a new computer... i am so sick and tired of my bitchy selfish way.. i guess it is time to be nicer to my love ones and control my temper and not flare up at them...

21-01-06 in memory of my old big poor monitor which i have dumped away.. good bye monitor...

Well.. first of all.. i would like to thank all friends who bother to come for my 21th bday party.. hehe it is a bit early lah holding it at 13 Jan06 when my birthday falls inFeb... i myself also dun feel like in the bday mood that day... but seeing all of you really makes me v. happy and i thoroughly enjoyed myself that day... thanks for all the presents that you all have given me.. i really like all of them alot.. not because i gain something new or anyting but because it symbolise your care for me.. meaning that a friend actually bother to take the effort to get me something.. get headache over what to buy for me.. shows that you all care for me.. i believe that the gift come from the bottom of the heart of each and everyone of you.. that was the reason why i like the gift so much.. and i hope that the gift din burn a big hole ur pocket.. hehe

For those that cannot make it and bother to call and explain to me why you all cannot come.. you are forgiven.. after all i can expect the world to stop just because it is my birthday.. and the fact that you bother to call to inform me that you cannot come is already enough for me to forgive you... HOWEVER those that din turn up and din bother to gif me a call... well i had enough of this kind of rubbish.. so for those that say will come and din come and definately din sms or call me to inform me.. you noe who you are and definately you wun be hearing from me again.. because i dun see the need in contacting somebody who does not bother/care bout me...

Well some of you might have thot.. wah lau y so petty... ppl only din come.. well i nv say that i am nice in the first place and this ppl should at least inform me.. instead of not coming and not telling.. this is v. disappointing you noe.. Okie enough of all this tok bout this ppl who din even bother about me..

Once again i would like to thank everybody who attended my party because i am really v. happy that day... have nv really enjoyed myself so much for a loooong time..
Special thanks to Bee Ting for helping me out after she come.. she is basically like the maid that day coz she help me to serve my secondary school friend..
Secondly want to thank my family for helpin me.. hehe comein to my aid at the snap of my finger... in case you all wonder why i say thank to Bee Ting first then my family is because.... Bee Ting is my friend mah.. she is not blood related to me.. therefore actually she does not need to help me one.. while the rest are my family mah.. so due to the blood relation they have to help me.. but i do really appreciate the help because they actually also dun really need to help me one.. hehe...
Kie kie turning 21 yet i am still as nonsenscial as ever and as childish as ever... think that i might grow up a bit after i turn 21??.. Fat hope.. i will never want to grow up.. being childish is good.. of course in time of need you can definately count on me.. if you are not in my hated list.. haha...
Kie kie will blog about my 21 reflection on 3 Feb.. in the meantime keep checking in.. i doubt i will blog again till 3 feb coz my computer is down!.. so i have to wait till my new computer arrive first then i will be active again.. Haha
Tata

P.S Chan Mei Ling who also mia from my party that day i noe that this is unlike you given that you have informed your supervisor before hand, so please give me a call to tell me what happened...

Well.. here we are at 2006.. suddenly i feel sad.. erm.. well sorta tinkin bout him again.. okie you all are going to do nt again!!... but i really dunno why... if i know why mayb i wun haf to suffer from heartache again and again like nobody's business.. that day i was plannin for what i want to do in the future.. study and blah.. and it will be another 3 -4 yr before i will obtain my degree.. then this question pop up my mind.. 4 yrs later.. will i still suffer from heartache when i think of him??.. something that i dunno.. when you have a heartache because you are thinkin of sumbody.. how do you ease the pain??...
Haizz...

Had a catfight with my bro.. nt just one.. in fact it is a few catfights in a few days time... i feel that it is nt that i am gettin too bitchy or anyting.. but then it is that the way he say things and blah sometime it is a bit funny and that is when i wil start to argue with him and then we will end up in a verbal catfight.. I mean image this situation.. this shop is closing at 8.. i called them to beg them to close at 8.15 so that we can reach there to purchase sometime.. and the time when i called is ard 7.40 and he is finishing his food lor... then he say you go urself hor.. you will be angry rite... after beggin the shop and blah.. then he just sit down there and say you go urself lor.. and after tat he told my sis that he is just kiddin wif me.. i mean this kind of thing is nt funny lor.. so please nv kid bout this kind of things again in the future.. like later part when i say i dun wan to go he also pissed off.. so it is actually the same what the situation if he is also pissed off then he should know that it is nt a nice joke... so please dun do tis in the future....

Yes.. i went to another weddin dinner tonite.. my cousin's.. well there was such a coincident that me and my youngest auntie( who is nt married) is wearin the same pattern clothing... as in wear a black shawl over our clothing... then i am like a bit... /=

But i din say anyting.. and in any case.. i would like to clarify this matter... HMW..LTL.. and whoever who try to associate me to doc lee.. i seriously know that i am goin to face the same fate as her... so life is actually more bearable if you all can stop associating me to her.. nt to the extend that you muz sms each other and gossip about me and her wearing the same kind of clothing... It is nt making me feel anywhere near better... i am already feeling bad enuff that this kind of ting haf to happen and even though my fate is sealed and i am goin to be left on shelf.. i seriously dun wish to have a characteristic like hers.. so i seriously hope you all can stop the associating coz this will make me feel better and i am able to control myself better..

My family members are all weird.. or at least today i confirm that my dad and i are weirdos... i intended to start cleaning my room frm 6 onwards today and in the end i dragged till ard 10.30 then i start cleaning my room.. and i clean my room all the way till ard 12 midnite.. and i found it refreshing and energetic.. and my dad came out at ard 11.45 and start boiling milo.. haha and our typical conversation will start with suaning and end in suaning too!!....
Well basically my whole family noe that i am on diet.. and i did managed to slim down.. so my dad shown me an article on girls having eating disorder coz they skipped their meals.. so he told me " I hope one day you dun turn to be like them you noe"... so while he was happily hafin his milo for supper.. i went over and told him "How to nt be fat like that??" and he widen his eyes and told me "I din had lunch you noe!!".. so i digged out the article that he shown me that day and show it back to him and tell him.. "I hope you dun one day turn into them you noe..".. haha.. an eye for an eye... haha.. well what happen when you haf an acid generating machine for a dad??.. you turn into a acid generating machine too.. haha and i am glad that i have an acid generating machine for a dad so that i can be a successful and good spitfire.. haha...

This is a v. good phone... it is a v. old phone.. but a v. good one.. why did i say so??.. Coz i have reverted back to using this good old trustworthly phone of mine... the last i used it was like erm.. 2003.. now is goin to be the end of 2005 bout two yr le.. and i have dropped it a lot of time.. but it is still usable!!.. imagine this.. all new phone that i purchase cant fight with V8088... the usability duration of all my phone cant fight with V8088!!.. it actually outlasted all the phone.. can you believe it??... That is the reason why it deserved to be kept in my room instead of selling away... I love my V8088.. it is still the most trustworthly phone of mine!!...

Yup.. i confirm that.. coz i was browsing thru net today.. and i decide to search for Little Mermaid.. That was one of my fav cartoon, and i remember that i went to cinema to watch it and remember part of the details.. Then i realise that Little Mermaid was actually shoot in 1989, that means, that i was only 4 at that point of time, yet i remember the details of the movie quite clearly. Haha so you see.. actually when you are 4 onwards you remember things... so i have to stop bullying my big nephew coz he is already 4 and he will start to remember things.. certainly i dun wan him to remember all the negative things that i have done to him... haha... q=
While in the meantime.. i still have three more year to bully my younger nephew.. yeah!!... haha sicko rite.. dun be sad!

Kie kie.. before i start blabbering nonsense..
Today is my bro birthday..
So this is for him..
Happy birthday to you
You are born in the zoo
There are lions and tiger
And the monkey is you..
Haha
Dun be sad!!

Kie back to earth.. well had a talk with my colleagues today.. two of them in fact.. they were telling me that cuming here is a waste of time.. i shouldnt be here at all.. In fact with the chance i should get out of tis job should i have the opportunity... In fact.. i should RUN out of here the moment there is a chance to get out of the job.. then i am confused.. what am i supposed to do now.. seems like there is no place that i can go to.. *sob* *sob*... i am sooo sad... i really want to study.. but then i dunno what to study.. seems like there is no help available for me to study.. to me currently my hope is that studying will get me to a greener pasture on the other side.. but then what if after i studied and get my degree and still cant find greener pasture??.. Then wat am i supposed to do??.. I really dunno... now i am aimless.. i used to haf this big plan in my mind.. a plan for me to suceed.. but ultimately will i??... Haizz....

Well had been hafin isomia for the past few days.. dunno why.. just cant sleep then when i wake up in the morning i will regret not sleepin earlier last nite... this is like cursed rite.. haizz... when will i stop hfin isomia... my stupid sister is squatting next to me seein me blog and tell me that the freaking bottle of mayo in my house is expired and ask me go and buy.. what the!!...... she is a bitch sia... just noe how to scream and scream mayb she had inherit my mum's gene... well stop here shall continue when i reach the office otherwise i will lose my life... now that she is bigger size than me..

Kie kie before i continue with anything, today is the birthday of my nephew, so here is for you LKK...
Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to LKK
Happy Birthday to you..
May all the blessing be with you always.. muz grow up to be a smart and sensible boy.. Yi love you..

Well.. yes i want to go back to studying.. i want to get a degree.. I want to climb to the top and get a high paid salary.. i am just fedup wif everything.. curse the idiot who cheat my dad of his money.. curse him.. mayb he burn in hell...

I am just fedup.. i somehow know what i should do with my life le.. i will go and study and study and study.. i just cant bear the thot that my dad still had to go out to work every now and then.. if i had money he wun need to go out to work.. i am fedup and sad at the same time.. sometime i really feel that i am useless.. he always tell me stories of his younger days.. when he go to sch.. go to poly.. he was a sucessful young man.. hafin been to poly in the kampung days.. his dad wanted him to enter a english school.. i guess he hope to see his son being successful one day.. sometime i really tink.. did he regret.. does he wish to go back to his past when he is successful.. but now at a old age.. he still had to go out to work.. i really feel that i am useless.. as a daughter... i did not study hard enuff to bring him honor nor get a high paid job to let him haf a comfortable retired life..

I hate myself.. i really do.. i hate myself for being so selfish.. my parents can give me their world.. what haf i given them all this while??.. nothing.. nothing at all!!.... i will nt tink of anyting more in the future.. i will only tink of studying.. earning money and giving them a comfortable life.. i am not goin to tink of anyting anymore..

Hey havent been bloggin about a certain topic for a v. long time.. since i blog that i no longer liked him anymore.. anyway last yr tis day.. sumting happened.. haha not sumting significant okie.. but something happened that made me liked him even more.. haha shall not further elaborate here.. but sumhow this day made me like him even more.. it is been one yr.. alot of tings had changed.. suddenly it just occur to me how horrible it is... as in only within a yr.. but alot of tingy can change... time is horrible.. in fact a lot of things can change in a day too.. like a married couple can be a divorced couple in a day.. You can be happy today and sad the other day.. the person next to you can be alive and kicking today and die tomorrow.. erm okie.. i am not being sad or opmistic.. but then this is just some of my tinking.. i haf realise tis long ago.. and i know that i should cherish everything around me because in a flash of time everything will be gone.. you haf to haf the courage to do tings.. but i dun haf that kind of courage.. luckily i dun haf that kind of courage.. otherwise i would have confessed to him long ago and be made the butt of the joke.. or mayb tings will turned out differently.. i dunno.. haha sometime how nice it would be if you haf a object that can tell you what will happen if you do this and what will happen if you do that??..
Okie.. i shall not deny that i am depressed today.. afterall my love was not fake.. one yr plus of liking him.. and remembering today is the day whereby i fell deeply for him.. it isnt something that will make me happy.. though i dun really like him now.. but i was hopeful in the past.. mayb you all might luff.. but i was really hopeful last yr.. till the beginning of this yr that he and i will get together.. just that i need to make the confession to him when the time is right.. but then.. now my hopes are dash.. i no longer feel that we will get together.. the fact is.. my encounter wif him is only a short one.. and at that short moment.. because i get to see him everything.. i was sure.. very sure that we will get together.. but time does not heal ppl...nor will it make him miss me even more.. it will drift us more and more apart.. when we werent even close to each other in the past.. now the distance between us are like north pole and south pole.. and we will just stay at the respective poles.. sad rite.. sometime i really wonder what if tings really turn out differently.. what if i really confessed to him and get together with him.. will i be happy??... one ting for sure.. i dun really love him anymore.. but the fact that i go around telling ppl that i will want to remain single for the rest of my life show that i have not totally let him go.. Now that is the joke.. when will i ever learn to let him go.. i guess not in this life.. Then come the part whereby i will say hopefully if there is a next time i will learn to let go of him rite.. but then one part of my heart hestitated.. it seems that, that part of my heart is not prepared to let go of him.. still habouring hopes of mittin him if there is a next life.. oh tis is so sad..
Okie here come the ending part.. wake up!!... i noe v. well that me and him are not fated.. so get on wif life.. in the meantime.. just try and learn to let go of him.. perhaps the next time when i blog about him again.. it is when i say that i haf totally learn to let go of him...

Not in a good mood now.. everything is coming apart.. sumhow sometime i feel that i am a lucky person.. sometime i feel that i am a unlucky person lame rite who dun think this way.. just celebrated bday for one of my friend.. perhaps i am a sensitive person.. sumhow one way or another i feel that we are drifting apart... dunno why dun wish to find out why.. just wish to leave it this way as it is.. said hi to her today on msn.. but she just told me that she is hafing a bad mood and dun wish to tok.. i just kep quiet.. coz i dun wish to say anyting.. she had already indicated the pt that she dun wish to tok to me.. so there is no pt in saying anyting anymore.. coz it will just make me feel like a clown.. in a friendship.. what is right and what is wrong.. i dunno and dun wish to find out anymore.. in any case i haf already settled on the fact that bee ting will be my only closest secondary friend.. the rest.. those that used to be close wif me.. ultimately will be the ones who hurted me the most.. hmm mayb you cannot blame them.. coz it might be my problem.. given that all my sec school close friend are doin this.. but i am really tired.. i always asked myself.. did i stand by them when they are upset or when i know that they are down.. the ans is yes.. a firm yes.. i will stand by them when i noe that they are upset.. but i am feelin tired now.. the more i tried to stand by them, the more i feel that i am being treated like dirt and a clown.. I shall not mention who is that friend.. but if that friend so happened to be looking at this blog.. i am not trying to be mean by bloggin this down.. you noe me.. i never like to go to sore part like why are we drifting apart or why are we no longer as close to each other as before.. but i just wish to let you know that we are drifting apart.. i understand that this is part and parcel of time.. you get to know new ppl at diff stage of life and you drift apart from old ones.. but i am just upset wif the way conversation are goin nowadays.. seems like you are always angry when you tok to me.. and it seems like you are channeling your anger towards me.. for no reason.. Seriously i am tired.. i am not goin to do anyting anymore or say anyting anymore.. becoz the more i say it will just makes me hate myself even more for being a clown..

Well.. i noe that i seldom say this.. but then i haf to say it.. Thanks HMW and HBL.. i noe that the both of you purposely came back to accompany me for dinner... i noe it okie.. coz i am ATC mah.. so i am supposed to see thru tings and analyse tings at a faster speed..
I noe that the both of you noe that i am upset..that is why you all make the effort to accompany me for dinner.. though one haf to bring two kids in toll and another one had to waste his petrol to fetch me home.. see it is all this little little tings that keep me going.. coz i noe that ren jian you wen qing.
Anyway i had a wonderful dinner.. it is been a loong time since the three of us had dinner and i really dun remember when was the last time.. thought it is just instant noodle.. and it tasted weird.. and i had to go to ntuc wif you all to buy ingredient in my pandan cake uniform.. but it was nice... and let me repeat another time.. i am not stupid till i dunno hw to cook noodle.. just that i like my noodle nice, soft and bloated like udon mee.. wahahahah...
Overall i had a nice evening.. and it sort of lighten up the gloomy weather in my heart..

Yes.. i created a blogspot for my younger nephew, Rey... before you all start to say that i am biased and only do a website for Rey and nothing for Rex (my elder nephew), he haf a friendster and neopets a/c hor... so in order to be fair also haf to created sumting for Rey rite.. so i created a blogspot for him... and i haf to use excellent customer service also hor.. coz the mummy is super duper picky.. firstly i use a bugs bunny background for the website then she say that it is not good coz they dun like bugs bunny.. so i change it to a cartoon angel and cartoon devil background.. then she say that it is nt good again because anyting is better than tis.. (picky rite.. first bugs bunny cannot.. then cartoon angel and cartoon devil she say anyting is better)... so i finally found the background that fit them to a T... i found a Incredible background... wif music summore... if she still say that it is not nice.. i will *slap* *slap* her.. Anyway if you all want to view my master creation.. just go to link and click on Rex and Rey..
Kie kie a little update about myself... recently had been pretty fulfilling.. work.. play.. enjoy myself and created a little blog for my nephew.. life have once again started moving for me.. i am no longer stagnant at one stage of my life.. but then i heard some news about him again.. this news sort of created a wave of emotion in my heart.. i noe that i dun really like him anymore.. like what i had blogged previously.. but now i noe of this.. it is sad that i didnt get this update.. but this just tell me that we are just friend.. or worse just x-colleague.. i will be fine again in a few days.. before you all go oh no.. the depression period is cuming again.. nope it is not.. just a v. bland feelin in my heart that is a little bit sour.. that is all.. the depression period wun come back.. because i noe that he does not know anyting about my feeling and it is not worth it to dwell on somebody who will never be able to know about your feeling and whom you noe that you will never be together with him and whats more a future wif him... No worries i will be fine in a few days time...
Kie kie that is all for now.. when i haf anyting mor i will blog again...

Hmm.. let see havent been bloggin for like three weeks.. wow tat seems like so long i last blog since when i hafin my two week hols.. then after that i started working, alot of tings happened but all seems to be happening at a v. fast speed.. now i am already third week into my job.. and trust me.. time flies...

Hmm did not really did alot of reflection this few days.. coz i am super duper tired... but anyway.. life is pretty much still the same for me.. no chances, still gettin bullied by my nephew, quarral with my mum as and when i like... still luffin at my sister for being a bimbo.. haha.. bullying beeting as and when i like.. life is pretty much the same.. nothing change.. one ting for sure i am happier now.. after i left my previous job.. i seem to have put down a v. big burden.. Anyway mittin karen and linda for dinner tonite.. so haf to go.. till then stay happy.. =D