Sylvia's World...

Well.. here we are at 2006.. suddenly i feel sad.. erm.. well sorta tinkin bout him again.. okie you all are going to do nt again!!... but i really dunno why... if i know why mayb i wun haf to suffer from heartache again and again like nobody's business.. that day i was plannin for what i want to do in the future.. study and blah.. and it will be another 3 -4 yr before i will obtain my degree.. then this question pop up my mind.. 4 yrs later.. will i still suffer from heartache when i think of him??.. something that i dunno.. when you have a heartache because you are thinkin of sumbody.. how do you ease the pain??...
Haizz...

Had a catfight with my bro.. nt just one.. in fact it is a few catfights in a few days time... i feel that it is nt that i am gettin too bitchy or anyting.. but then it is that the way he say things and blah sometime it is a bit funny and that is when i wil start to argue with him and then we will end up in a verbal catfight.. I mean image this situation.. this shop is closing at 8.. i called them to beg them to close at 8.15 so that we can reach there to purchase sometime.. and the time when i called is ard 7.40 and he is finishing his food lor... then he say you go urself hor.. you will be angry rite... after beggin the shop and blah.. then he just sit down there and say you go urself lor.. and after tat he told my sis that he is just kiddin wif me.. i mean this kind of thing is nt funny lor.. so please nv kid bout this kind of things again in the future.. like later part when i say i dun wan to go he also pissed off.. so it is actually the same what the situation if he is also pissed off then he should know that it is nt a nice joke... so please dun do tis in the future....

Yes.. i went to another weddin dinner tonite.. my cousin's.. well there was such a coincident that me and my youngest auntie( who is nt married) is wearin the same pattern clothing... as in wear a black shawl over our clothing... then i am like a bit... /=

But i din say anyting.. and in any case.. i would like to clarify this matter... HMW..LTL.. and whoever who try to associate me to doc lee.. i seriously know that i am goin to face the same fate as her... so life is actually more bearable if you all can stop associating me to her.. nt to the extend that you muz sms each other and gossip about me and her wearing the same kind of clothing... It is nt making me feel anywhere near better... i am already feeling bad enuff that this kind of ting haf to happen and even though my fate is sealed and i am goin to be left on shelf.. i seriously dun wish to have a characteristic like hers.. so i seriously hope you all can stop the associating coz this will make me feel better and i am able to control myself better..

My family members are all weird.. or at least today i confirm that my dad and i are weirdos... i intended to start cleaning my room frm 6 onwards today and in the end i dragged till ard 10.30 then i start cleaning my room.. and i clean my room all the way till ard 12 midnite.. and i found it refreshing and energetic.. and my dad came out at ard 11.45 and start boiling milo.. haha and our typical conversation will start with suaning and end in suaning too!!....
Well basically my whole family noe that i am on diet.. and i did managed to slim down.. so my dad shown me an article on girls having eating disorder coz they skipped their meals.. so he told me " I hope one day you dun turn to be like them you noe"... so while he was happily hafin his milo for supper.. i went over and told him "How to nt be fat like that??" and he widen his eyes and told me "I din had lunch you noe!!".. so i digged out the article that he shown me that day and show it back to him and tell him.. "I hope you dun one day turn into them you noe..".. haha.. an eye for an eye... haha.. well what happen when you haf an acid generating machine for a dad??.. you turn into a acid generating machine too.. haha and i am glad that i have an acid generating machine for a dad so that i can be a successful and good spitfire.. haha...

This is a v. good phone... it is a v. old phone.. but a v. good one.. why did i say so??.. Coz i have reverted back to using this good old trustworthly phone of mine... the last i used it was like erm.. 2003.. now is goin to be the end of 2005 bout two yr le.. and i have dropped it a lot of time.. but it is still usable!!.. imagine this.. all new phone that i purchase cant fight with V8088... the usability duration of all my phone cant fight with V8088!!.. it actually outlasted all the phone.. can you believe it??... That is the reason why it deserved to be kept in my room instead of selling away... I love my V8088.. it is still the most trustworthly phone of mine!!...

Yup.. i confirm that.. coz i was browsing thru net today.. and i decide to search for Little Mermaid.. That was one of my fav cartoon, and i remember that i went to cinema to watch it and remember part of the details.. Then i realise that Little Mermaid was actually shoot in 1989, that means, that i was only 4 at that point of time, yet i remember the details of the movie quite clearly. Haha so you see.. actually when you are 4 onwards you remember things... so i have to stop bullying my big nephew coz he is already 4 and he will start to remember things.. certainly i dun wan him to remember all the negative things that i have done to him... haha... q=
While in the meantime.. i still have three more year to bully my younger nephew.. yeah!!... haha sicko rite.. dun be sad!

Kie kie.. before i start blabbering nonsense..
Today is my bro birthday..
So this is for him..
Happy birthday to you
You are born in the zoo
There are lions and tiger
And the monkey is you..
Haha
Dun be sad!!

Kie back to earth.. well had a talk with my colleagues today.. two of them in fact.. they were telling me that cuming here is a waste of time.. i shouldnt be here at all.. In fact with the chance i should get out of tis job should i have the opportunity... In fact.. i should RUN out of here the moment there is a chance to get out of the job.. then i am confused.. what am i supposed to do now.. seems like there is no place that i can go to.. *sob* *sob*... i am sooo sad... i really want to study.. but then i dunno what to study.. seems like there is no help available for me to study.. to me currently my hope is that studying will get me to a greener pasture on the other side.. but then what if after i studied and get my degree and still cant find greener pasture??.. Then wat am i supposed to do??.. I really dunno... now i am aimless.. i used to haf this big plan in my mind.. a plan for me to suceed.. but ultimately will i??... Haizz....

Well had been hafin isomia for the past few days.. dunno why.. just cant sleep then when i wake up in the morning i will regret not sleepin earlier last nite... this is like cursed rite.. haizz... when will i stop hfin isomia... my stupid sister is squatting next to me seein me blog and tell me that the freaking bottle of mayo in my house is expired and ask me go and buy.. what the!!...... she is a bitch sia... just noe how to scream and scream mayb she had inherit my mum's gene... well stop here shall continue when i reach the office otherwise i will lose my life... now that she is bigger size than me..

Kie kie before i continue with anything, today is the birthday of my nephew, so here is for you LKK...
Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to LKK
Happy Birthday to you..
May all the blessing be with you always.. muz grow up to be a smart and sensible boy.. Yi love you..

Well.. yes i want to go back to studying.. i want to get a degree.. I want to climb to the top and get a high paid salary.. i am just fedup wif everything.. curse the idiot who cheat my dad of his money.. curse him.. mayb he burn in hell...

I am just fedup.. i somehow know what i should do with my life le.. i will go and study and study and study.. i just cant bear the thot that my dad still had to go out to work every now and then.. if i had money he wun need to go out to work.. i am fedup and sad at the same time.. sometime i really feel that i am useless.. he always tell me stories of his younger days.. when he go to sch.. go to poly.. he was a sucessful young man.. hafin been to poly in the kampung days.. his dad wanted him to enter a english school.. i guess he hope to see his son being successful one day.. sometime i really tink.. did he regret.. does he wish to go back to his past when he is successful.. but now at a old age.. he still had to go out to work.. i really feel that i am useless.. as a daughter... i did not study hard enuff to bring him honor nor get a high paid job to let him haf a comfortable retired life..

I hate myself.. i really do.. i hate myself for being so selfish.. my parents can give me their world.. what haf i given them all this while??.. nothing.. nothing at all!!.... i will nt tink of anyting more in the future.. i will only tink of studying.. earning money and giving them a comfortable life.. i am not goin to tink of anyting anymore..

Hey havent been bloggin about a certain topic for a v. long time.. since i blog that i no longer liked him anymore.. anyway last yr tis day.. sumting happened.. haha not sumting significant okie.. but something happened that made me liked him even more.. haha shall not further elaborate here.. but sumhow this day made me like him even more.. it is been one yr.. alot of tings had changed.. suddenly it just occur to me how horrible it is... as in only within a yr.. but alot of tingy can change... time is horrible.. in fact a lot of things can change in a day too.. like a married couple can be a divorced couple in a day.. You can be happy today and sad the other day.. the person next to you can be alive and kicking today and die tomorrow.. erm okie.. i am not being sad or opmistic.. but then this is just some of my tinking.. i haf realise tis long ago.. and i know that i should cherish everything around me because in a flash of time everything will be gone.. you haf to haf the courage to do tings.. but i dun haf that kind of courage.. luckily i dun haf that kind of courage.. otherwise i would have confessed to him long ago and be made the butt of the joke.. or mayb tings will turned out differently.. i dunno.. haha sometime how nice it would be if you haf a object that can tell you what will happen if you do this and what will happen if you do that??..
Okie.. i shall not deny that i am depressed today.. afterall my love was not fake.. one yr plus of liking him.. and remembering today is the day whereby i fell deeply for him.. it isnt something that will make me happy.. though i dun really like him now.. but i was hopeful in the past.. mayb you all might luff.. but i was really hopeful last yr.. till the beginning of this yr that he and i will get together.. just that i need to make the confession to him when the time is right.. but then.. now my hopes are dash.. i no longer feel that we will get together.. the fact is.. my encounter wif him is only a short one.. and at that short moment.. because i get to see him everything.. i was sure.. very sure that we will get together.. but time does not heal ppl...nor will it make him miss me even more.. it will drift us more and more apart.. when we werent even close to each other in the past.. now the distance between us are like north pole and south pole.. and we will just stay at the respective poles.. sad rite.. sometime i really wonder what if tings really turn out differently.. what if i really confessed to him and get together with him.. will i be happy??... one ting for sure.. i dun really love him anymore.. but the fact that i go around telling ppl that i will want to remain single for the rest of my life show that i have not totally let him go.. Now that is the joke.. when will i ever learn to let him go.. i guess not in this life.. Then come the part whereby i will say hopefully if there is a next time i will learn to let go of him rite.. but then one part of my heart hestitated.. it seems that, that part of my heart is not prepared to let go of him.. still habouring hopes of mittin him if there is a next life.. oh tis is so sad..
Okie here come the ending part.. wake up!!... i noe v. well that me and him are not fated.. so get on wif life.. in the meantime.. just try and learn to let go of him.. perhaps the next time when i blog about him again.. it is when i say that i haf totally learn to let go of him...

Not in a good mood now.. everything is coming apart.. sumhow sometime i feel that i am a lucky person.. sometime i feel that i am a unlucky person lame rite who dun think this way.. just celebrated bday for one of my friend.. perhaps i am a sensitive person.. sumhow one way or another i feel that we are drifting apart... dunno why dun wish to find out why.. just wish to leave it this way as it is.. said hi to her today on msn.. but she just told me that she is hafing a bad mood and dun wish to tok.. i just kep quiet.. coz i dun wish to say anyting.. she had already indicated the pt that she dun wish to tok to me.. so there is no pt in saying anyting anymore.. coz it will just make me feel like a clown.. in a friendship.. what is right and what is wrong.. i dunno and dun wish to find out anymore.. in any case i haf already settled on the fact that bee ting will be my only closest secondary friend.. the rest.. those that used to be close wif me.. ultimately will be the ones who hurted me the most.. hmm mayb you cannot blame them.. coz it might be my problem.. given that all my sec school close friend are doin this.. but i am really tired.. i always asked myself.. did i stand by them when they are upset or when i know that they are down.. the ans is yes.. a firm yes.. i will stand by them when i noe that they are upset.. but i am feelin tired now.. the more i tried to stand by them, the more i feel that i am being treated like dirt and a clown.. I shall not mention who is that friend.. but if that friend so happened to be looking at this blog.. i am not trying to be mean by bloggin this down.. you noe me.. i never like to go to sore part like why are we drifting apart or why are we no longer as close to each other as before.. but i just wish to let you know that we are drifting apart.. i understand that this is part and parcel of time.. you get to know new ppl at diff stage of life and you drift apart from old ones.. but i am just upset wif the way conversation are goin nowadays.. seems like you are always angry when you tok to me.. and it seems like you are channeling your anger towards me.. for no reason.. Seriously i am tired.. i am not goin to do anyting anymore or say anyting anymore.. becoz the more i say it will just makes me hate myself even more for being a clown..

Well.. i noe that i seldom say this.. but then i haf to say it.. Thanks HMW and HBL.. i noe that the both of you purposely came back to accompany me for dinner... i noe it okie.. coz i am ATC mah.. so i am supposed to see thru tings and analyse tings at a faster speed..
I noe that the both of you noe that i am upset..that is why you all make the effort to accompany me for dinner.. though one haf to bring two kids in toll and another one had to waste his petrol to fetch me home.. see it is all this little little tings that keep me going.. coz i noe that ren jian you wen qing.
Anyway i had a wonderful dinner.. it is been a loong time since the three of us had dinner and i really dun remember when was the last time.. thought it is just instant noodle.. and it tasted weird.. and i had to go to ntuc wif you all to buy ingredient in my pandan cake uniform.. but it was nice... and let me repeat another time.. i am not stupid till i dunno hw to cook noodle.. just that i like my noodle nice, soft and bloated like udon mee.. wahahahah...
Overall i had a nice evening.. and it sort of lighten up the gloomy weather in my heart..

Yes.. i created a blogspot for my younger nephew, Rey... before you all start to say that i am biased and only do a website for Rey and nothing for Rex (my elder nephew), he haf a friendster and neopets a/c hor... so in order to be fair also haf to created sumting for Rey rite.. so i created a blogspot for him... and i haf to use excellent customer service also hor.. coz the mummy is super duper picky.. firstly i use a bugs bunny background for the website then she say that it is not good coz they dun like bugs bunny.. so i change it to a cartoon angel and cartoon devil background.. then she say that it is nt good again because anyting is better than tis.. (picky rite.. first bugs bunny cannot.. then cartoon angel and cartoon devil she say anyting is better)... so i finally found the background that fit them to a T... i found a Incredible background... wif music summore... if she still say that it is not nice.. i will *slap* *slap* her.. Anyway if you all want to view my master creation.. just go to link and click on Rex and Rey..
Kie kie a little update about myself... recently had been pretty fulfilling.. work.. play.. enjoy myself and created a little blog for my nephew.. life have once again started moving for me.. i am no longer stagnant at one stage of my life.. but then i heard some news about him again.. this news sort of created a wave of emotion in my heart.. i noe that i dun really like him anymore.. like what i had blogged previously.. but now i noe of this.. it is sad that i didnt get this update.. but this just tell me that we are just friend.. or worse just x-colleague.. i will be fine again in a few days.. before you all go oh no.. the depression period is cuming again.. nope it is not.. just a v. bland feelin in my heart that is a little bit sour.. that is all.. the depression period wun come back.. because i noe that he does not know anyting about my feeling and it is not worth it to dwell on somebody who will never be able to know about your feeling and whom you noe that you will never be together with him and whats more a future wif him... No worries i will be fine in a few days time...
Kie kie that is all for now.. when i haf anyting mor i will blog again...

Hmm.. let see havent been bloggin for like three weeks.. wow tat seems like so long i last blog since when i hafin my two week hols.. then after that i started working, alot of tings happened but all seems to be happening at a v. fast speed.. now i am already third week into my job.. and trust me.. time flies...

Hmm did not really did alot of reflection this few days.. coz i am super duper tired... but anyway.. life is pretty much still the same for me.. no chances, still gettin bullied by my nephew, quarral with my mum as and when i like... still luffin at my sister for being a bimbo.. haha.. bullying beeting as and when i like.. life is pretty much the same.. nothing change.. one ting for sure i am happier now.. after i left my previous job.. i seem to have put down a v. big burden.. Anyway mittin karen and linda for dinner tonite.. so haf to go.. till then stay happy.. =D

Hmm nothing to do.. so here i am to enter a blog.. notice i dun call this nonsense because what i am goin to say in the following paragraph is serious okie.. haha..
Well i had a gathering wif Ah Fa, Linda, Kai Ren and Tom on tuesday.. it was really wonderful... i really enjoyed myself that day.. it had really been a looooong time since i last saw them and going out with them really make me very happy... Then i suddenly realised that i miss poly life alot.. alot alot alot.. i came to realise that i wun really be seeing them so often anymore.. coz everybody haf already gone out of poly and will be leading their own life.. i mean when you graduate from secondary school and you go to either poly or jc thought ppl are leading their own life but the feeling is different because you noe that thought your sec school friends had their own friends but they are still studying.. now that we had graduated from poly and jc, friends are really going to go different path.... some will be like me... start working.. some will still be studying.. some are going to get married le and some had gone into NS.. i guess this is really a horrible feeling when you noe that you and ur friends are really going to go different path in life.. it is a sad feeling.. but life still haf to go on.. though you are going different way from ur friends.. at least there are happy memories that you can take out once in a while and tink about it..

Anyway.. guys.. i really had a great time on tuesday.. i really miss those days in poly whereby we will all sit at mensa canteen and gossip.. laze around and while me and ah fa will fight like kids.. haha... i was truly happy on tuesday.. and though we are going different path in life.. we muz still keep in contact okie.. (=

It is two in the morning and i haf decided to blog some nonsense here.. well this few days alot of things had happened.. I had already left my previous job.. on a break before i move onto my new job.. I am fine le.. really fine.. i no longer like him anymore.. those who noe who is he should noe who is he.. haha.. actually he was the one who made me realise that i dun like him anymore.. something that he did made me realise that he is not the guy that i thot he is.. like i told those who noe that i like him.. i will like him and fall sooo deep for him is because the feeling not anyting else.. now i realise that mayb the feeling is not rite from the beginning.. it is just that all along i had thot that it is the rite feelin.. so i allow myself to fall deeper and deeper.. nw and then i still feel a little bit of heartache.. but after a while it will be okie.. i haf decided that i will never fall in love.. because i feel that i will never be prepared.. mayb i am really searching for my prince charming.. the perfect guy for me.. which in real life.. how could anybody find the prefect guy she had been tinking about.. it is near to impossible.. i noe that i am dreaming.. tat is why i prefer not to fall in love.. it is better tat way.. there are still alot of things in the world for us to do oher than falling in love.. I decided to adopt a child in third world country not those that i brin back lah.. as in those that stay wif their parents but then i will pay a sum of money to them every mth for the kid's basic needs like food, clothes as well as food.. i had decide i want to do more meaningful things in life.. (=
Life had not been so light and easy to carry on for a long time.. when i like him.. the thot that we cannot be together constantly drag me down and made life a heavy ting to carry on.. i have decide to enjoy this moment to the fullest...

Second ting of the day.. just had a chat wif my friend(if you are wondering how cum i blog at 2pm is because i was chatting wif him till now).. he can be considered as one of my bestest friend in secondary school.. never did i thot that he can be my good friend.. haha anyway.. had a chat wif him.. catch up with him a bit.. did not see him for a v. long time.. Well he nagged at me to contact another of my friend.. haha *opps* hopefully he du get to see my blog otherwise he is goin to kill me for sayin that he nagged at me.. anyway he really did nagged at me to contact this friend of mine whom i am no longer in contact wif and is not on good term wif her.. but he feel that i should contact her because we used to be like the best bestest friend in secondary school.. yet we fall out with each other.. the reason behind it.. it is too long to explain.. but i guess none of my poly friend except zhuang hui hui noe about this story.. in any case.. i promise my friend that i will send her an email then the rest is up to her to see if she wish to contact me.. well but it is already so late.. so i guess that i will email her again tomorrow.. argh~ why do i always had to do tis kind of tingy.. It is 2.06am in Singapore.. goin to sleep soon.. Gd nite!

Hmm.. havent been really maintaining my blog for a v. looooong time.. ever since i changed the skin to this butterfly tingy... then i maintain for a while and blog consistently then ignore the whole blog totally... kie kie i noe previous few time i blog on some crap then stop.. kie kie some REAL updates about myself.. erm.. definately i am still abit upset... a little bit only.. not really tat much that i will fall into depression.. anyway i quit my job le.. okie before you all jump into conclusion that i am a bad youngster who waste her life.. i found a job before i quit my current job.. Well i really cant stand this job anymore le.. it is getting more and more crappy as days goes by.. so i decide i need to loook for a new job.. hey i am already a v. crappy person if i stay in a crappy job i will turn even more crappy.. haha... but i am still confused over my feelings.. i mean i should have felt v. happy when i leave this job rite considering how much i hate it.. yet in my heart i felt a bit upset.. i noe why lah.. coz my colleagues are v. nice.. I really cant bear to leave them..

Actually i should consider myself lucky that my colleagues are nice.. BUT fish got to swim, birds got to eat.. so Sylvia had to change job.. Or i stayed in this job, ee my mood is really very horrible.. it flutuate like nobody's business (thought it is really nobody's business) but this shouldnt be the case!... I will just flare up when some small irritating issue happen.. One person that i truly appreciate is Bee Ting.. she had been v. patient with me throughout this period of time when my mood is so horrible to face.. thought i reallly flare up she still patiently follow me home and tell me to tell her what happened because i will die of anger if i dun tell anybody.. which is true lah and to make tings worse she send me an greeting sms the day after telling me that she appreciate me as a friend.. Hey Bee Ting if there is anybody to be appreciated it will be me tellin you that i appreciate you as my friend..Hopefully the new job is sumting that i like.. then i will be happy everyday.. =D

Okie some updates at home.. erm actually not much updates.. here is some character that you will encounter at my home..
My mum who behavior like the empress dowager who will eliminate anybody who dares to challenge her(haha just kidding)..
My dad who is the acid generating machine who will now and then generate some high acidity content conversation with us ( i am toking about the truth, never will you see a dad like mine who will stop at nothing to suan us.. haha)..
My bro who is the big sister(coz every now and then he will bitch with us)..
My sister who is as veggie life as ever (imagine getting food poisoning after eating uncooked canned food)
Me who is the brat of the family (coz i am the only one who will challenge the empress dowager, suan back the acid generating machine, bitch back at my da jie like nobody's business and luff at my veggie life sister for the food poisoning that she gets)..

haha okie i am just kidding.. my family is actually not tat weird.. i am really glad to be born into this family.. each and everytime when my mood reached the lowest point, i will tink of them and i am able to brace myself up again for whatever that may comes coz i noe that i definately dun wan to see them truly unhappy and worried for me over some really serious issue.. and i noe that i want to live my every single day knowing that they are safe and sound..

Today is a v. special day.. i tink only Bee Ting will noe what i meant.. one yr ago today sumting happened.. though it is a v. small ting but i still remember it.. it is a piece of memory that i cerish and hold close to my heart always... i noe some of you might think that really got so serious?.. yes it is tat serious in fact it is not serious.. it is just something that i guess only i will remember the other party will not remember and something that only a idiot like me will cerish and hold this memory dear to my heart..
Din do anyting today.. just idle my time away.. doing nothing.. i am too sad at the moment to do anything.. and i dun wish to cry anymore.. after all this time of crying.. i found out that actually you wun feel better after crying... ppl always say that if you are upset.. cry out loud.. after that you will feel soooo much better.. in the past it did work.. now it dun anymore.. no matter how many time i cry or how loud i cry.. i will still feel that lousy after crying.. but the next time tears will still flow freely.. i noe that tears are free, but after all this crying it just make my tears seems worthless.. if a woman's tears is really precious.. i guess mine had already lost its value over time..
I feel like confessing to him.. but i dun haf the courage and i dun want to lost him as my friend.. but life is already unbearable.. it is getting really sad for me to move on.. everything around me reminds me of him.. but i noe that it is impossible between the two of us.. mayb i will do a confession here.. then one day while he is surfin the net and he will so happened to come across this blog and see this confession and start luffin at how silly it is.. but i still wish to tell you.. yes you the idiot.. who made me suffered so long.. i really like you.. really really like you.. sometime i really hope that i can be together with you.. but i noe that it is impossible.. among so many girl that you have met i am just somebody who had cross path with you.. i will just blend into the crowd and fade into the background as time goes by.. you will never know how big a impact you made on my life.. you gave me a heartache that is so big that i find life unbearable.. but i had never regret knowing you.. because it is you who made me change.. knowing you is a memory that i wish to remember as much as i wish to forget.. it is amazin how you can just stand or sit beside me and my heart will feel as it is goin to jump out any moment or my emotion will be riding a roller coaster.. yet all this while you noe nothing though you are just beside me.. if given a choice i really dun mind following you to any part of the world.. but i am also aware that even if you are really goin to any part of the world you will never chose me as ur companion.. i am just day dreaming... I always wonder what are you doing now.. are you happy??.. dun be unhappy okie.. I will always support you in the decision you make okie..

*Miss My Prince*

I have having a super bad headache today.. coz i slept late last nite.. was watching My Date With A Vampire 3.. this is my least favorite among the three series.. because Wang Zhen Zhen is not inside!!... okie i noe that Wang Zhen Zhen is super irritating because she always come in between Ma Xiao Ling and Kuang Tian You, but why this show is so nice because in the first series.. it talks about the fate between Wang Zhen Zhen and Yamamoto Katsuo. It is sooo nice.. though Wang Zhen Zhen does not like him but then he still loves her and utimately they both of they sort of get together thought they died.. but it is because they are fated to be together and that is one of the point that make this how so nice.. because they have qian shi qing yuan.. THEN suddenly in this third series, there is no more Wang Zhen Zhen to be together with him.. instead the Wanyuan Bupo is in love with Yue YinPing and in the end with Goddness of Yaochi.. argh~ what happened to the qian shi qing yuan between him and Wang Zhen Zhen... i dun like!.. But being a My Date With A Vampire Encyclopedia i will still watch it.. haha...

Anyway i went out with my poly friend during saturday.. had dinner with them.. enjoyed myself thought some of the members are not there.. and there is only the two of us.. Fahee and me clowning around.. well it is always the two of us clowning around since nw Zhuang Hui Hui is in australia studying.. Really hope that there is more of this kind of outing the future.. I really miss poly life whereby life has not tat much worries and we can just slack at TP campus..

While i was going home i was super unhappy.. i found that Singaporean are super unpolite.. i was standing at the bus stop there and yet they cant see me.. have to knock me.. i was so frustrate that i tell myself i will scream at the next person who is goin to knock me again.. i really dun understand what is wrong with this ppl.. at least if they had not do this kind of ting the world will be a more pleasant place to live in.. and when i take mrt i see that youngsters are sitting and pretending to not see anything while old ppl are standing.. are this youngsters blind or anyting?.. or mayb they dun have a brain to think... are they so desperately in need of the seat?... i dun believe they are.. this is so stupid.. no matter how smart this ppl are so long as they have not basic manners to give up their seats to old people they are still stupid...

Hmm.. i found that i have been complaining alot in the two para that i had typed above.. what to do.. haha i had observed this behavior for a v. long time... been tinking of bloggin it down for a looong but i was too lazy.. since now i am bloggin.. why not just blog everything down.. haha...

Kie kie no more complain le.. complain somemore and i will turn into a grumpy old lady even before i turn old.. haha

Haiz.. this few days... i keep on tinking.. tink and tink and tink.. yet i still cant come to a conclusion.. i guess i had really killed alot of brain cells this few days... i really really really dunno what to do... i guess when life ends up like mine.. it can get pretty sad.. when i am stuck at my this job.. i keep on grumbling that i wan to get out.. fine now i have a chance to get out.. and yet my tinking swing from one pt to another day and nite.. at work i m so determine to get out of my current job.. then when i am at home or alone.. i tink that mayb tat new job offer is not suitable for me...

Argh~ can sumbody tell me.. is there something wrong wif my life or am i just trying to be funny by torturing myself day and nite tinking about this issue.. on top of all the endless frustrating issue that i had to tink about.. now i noe.. that responsibilities is really something that is v. difficult to handle.. I used to tink responsibilities arh.. okie lor no matter how big the responsibilites is.. so long as i am strong willed i am able to handle it.. NO i am wrong!!.. it is only when i start working then i know.. responsiblities is something that is very difficult to handle.. i something really wish that i had no responsiblities.. i am really v. tired from all this issue at hand.. i really dun wish to tink about anything anymore... my colleague asked me did i asked my parents what do i want to do.. i told her no.. my life is my own i should handle it.. actually somehow i wish that they could help me to solve all my problem.. but i know that i shouldnt be adding problem to their life.. therefore i chose not to tell them.. whatever decision i make i will bear the responsiblities and miseries that come along with it.. i shouldnt add this problem to my parents and let them face it just because i dont wish to face it myself..

Well after typing so much rubbish.. i still had not come to a decision.. my friend will always look be v. impressed with me because i will always resolve decision like where to go with a scissor paper stone game.. they feel that i am too childish, but sometime wun it be nice to just tink of something to come out with a decision even if it is a v. childish way.. wat matter is that at the end the problem is solved in a v. simple way.. seriuosly i really thot of coming to a decision of staying at my current job or going to the new one with a scissor paper stone game.. but then i noe that i cant do it.. life is not always tat simple.. but seriously what should i chose??...Stay or Go i really dunno.... argh~.. somebody please help me....